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I never really thought that little saying 'Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder' Ever really worked, But i can just say right now, It definetly does.
I've never really started believing in things like this until i met Anne-Marie, Honestly, I kno you'll think im saying this because im madly in love with her and shes my girlfriend etc... But i really do believe my life started With Anne-Marie.
There are so many things I've done with Anne-Marie that i would never have dreamed of doing with anyone else, and i dont. There are things that i've done with Anne-Marie that i could never see myself doing/Enjoying. She has bought out the real me. There are so many things i enjoy doing with her but couldnt with anyone else, Balloon Fiesta, Museums, Laughing at really silly pointless things, Sitting in the garden, Playing ENDLESS amounts of board games, Losing so terribly at Monopoly (=(), Watching chick flicks/silly films and actually wanting to watch them, actually sitting down to begin with to watch a film, walks, have a phone conversation longer than 5mins, having phone convos at all! Hehe, Staring at the clouds <3, staying up til the early morning talking, watching the snow at 3am, poetry (I’ll stop with the list soon ;-) ) reading, Falling in LOVE, Missing someone, feeling confident, feeling good about myself =D Babes I have this and so so so much more to thank you for, I really love you for it.
I know at times I complain that I’m missing Anne-Marie (ok so all the time?!) But I love it, I love to have someone as special, amazing, beautiful and great as Anne-Marie to miss, I wouldn’t trade it for the world. But then again I don’t believe its possible to swap something for something you already have. Yes you might all think I’m super cheesy, But Anne-Marie is my world, and I miss it, I want her back. I know your prolly all like 2weeks isn’t long. But 2weeks without your best-friend, girlfriend, over half, life, world, everything is very very hard.
I’m finding it really hard to do anything without her, I need her. She is my life, without her I am nothing. I find myself getting upset thinking how far away she is I really do, I see couples in real life and on the TV and think ‘I want to show all these people that me and Anne-Marie are the best couple, I want to show everyone how happy she really makes me’
We mighta had some hard times, but we’ve pulled through so many things. I know we can make it through anything, sure it might take time, but we can. We have what some couples don’t have, LOVE. Some couples believe they have it, but its nothing but a shell. I know that what me and Anne-Marie have is love, because of all we’ve been through, the laughter the tears the happiness and the Sadness, There are feelings I feel that just HAVE to be love, The fireworks I see when I kiss her, the butterflies I feel just being in her presence, that’s love. The laughter and tears we share, Thats love. The memories we’ve shared, that’s love. That amazing feeling I have when just looking in her eyes, That’s love. I don’t care what anyone says, aslong as we know we love eachother that’s all that matters.
I’m started to get annoyed at this update as I have a feeling I’m just blabbing and that it won’t make any sense to anyone who reads this but me. But I have put so much emotion into this elJay update, it just seemed to pour from my heart.
It was quite funny really, I saw this old couple on TV coupla days ago, they looked really really in love, The old lady fell asleep on the guys shoulder and he had his arm around her, and I couldn’t help but think, I want to grow old with Anne-Marie, I want all of this, I want the rest of my life with her.
If I believe my life started with Anne-Marie, Why can’t it end with Anne-Marie too? If theres one thing this time apart with Anne-Marie has showed me, its that I don’t want any more time apart from her, I want to treasure every second with her even more than I did before. I want to be with her forever.