APs are driving me crazy
Lit and APUSH I've been expecting to do the best I can and land in 4, or 5 if I get lucky
Lang, haha, as long as I pass it I will be satisfied, considering I was in the class for 3 months
Calc and Chinese if I don't get a 5 I'll just jump off some window, not that there are any higher than 2 stories around here
But now they're right around the corner and I'm feeling extremely underprepared, even Calc and Chinese. The last 2 days in Calc REALLY sucked because the practice AP questions just owned me. And Chinese... I really haven't had that much proper preparation whatsoever except a 2-hour class once a week for the last month or so.
The Lit and APUSH teachers don't seem to be concerned with their students doing well or even PASSING the APs at all. The Lit teacher is holding 2 (count 'em: TWO) study sessions total to discuss essay strategies, and since it overlaps with my Chinese class it means I'll have a total of 4 hours devoted to Lit preparation. Somehow she thinks that the class itself has been a good preparation so far, but I think she's just fallen into the same pitfall as all English teachers I've had: thinking that merely writing an essay will help you write a better essay the next time around. Um, no. Especially not when I don't an said essay back until weeks after I completely forget the thought processes I went through during the essay and can't really improve from whatever crappy organization or analysis flaws I had.
Don't even get me started with USH, the teacher is so zealously attached to our textbook that today a student did a sit-in after school in protest of a poorly phrased test question (made by the same company that published the textbook) and the teacher simply said "turn off the lights on your way out" and left to watch the varsity tennis match -- and after tennis was halted by rain, the teacher just went home.
Lang is the kicker. Lit should definitely help because most of the reading/writing skills are the same, with the exception of focuses in rhetorics. I'm just gonna cross my fingers and HOPE that 3 months worth of Lang paid off and is sufficient. The new Synthesis essay will definitely pose a challenge since I haven't really practiced it (have I?), but considering that AP Lang isn't in the immediate future of next week (instead, the week right after), I'm just going to keep it in the back of my mind for now.
Somewhere along the road of education I've wandered off the path to appreciate the surrounding scenery, but I guess I never realized how far I got astray until the tempest is finally freaking here and I'm hopelessly lost and completely out of time to return to peace. Ay caramba, lusty month of May indeed.