yesterday sucked ass..wish i was still in CT. just very depressed and mixed emotions. idk. dont really have much to say except i need to get out more often.

yay i put gavin to bed with water instead of milk. im trying to get him to go to bed with nothing at all because i want to get him off the bottle. he hates his sippy cups though. genes mom said to give him a cup with a little bit of water in it and see how he does. he gonna either choke on it or spill it duh. at least i dont have to get him off the ( Read more... )

almost 2 more hours until the new year and im embracing it with hopes that it will be a better year. so many bad things happened in 2009...i wanted to take this time to say goodbye to the past. life has changed so much. if i could go back in time i would do things so differently. i love you all and hopefully 2010 will be less stressful.

i think i might go back to college. i was looking at the HCC website and i might try medical coding and billing. i only need 25 credits and if i do part time then it should take me about 3 years but thats if i get approved for FA. my grade point average is only 1.5 and i think you need a 2.0 for qualify. im gonna try it anyways and see what happens ( Read more... )

my mom is going to die. everyone tells me to cheer up or think positive. the doctors put us in a room and told us they did everything they can do. her body is just shutting down. my cousins greg and casey are like brother and sister. we are a close family. my mom will always be gavin's grandmother but i asked my aunt if he can call her memay. i ( Read more... )

my mom was supposed to go for a biopsy to figure out what kind of pnimonia she has but instead they put something down her throat kind of like a swab or whatever its called. they found blood so they did a cat scan of her lungs. she doesnt have pnimonia its the virus attacking her lungs and now its moving to her kidneys. the doctors said shes not ( Read more... )

as most people know my mom is in the hospital because she had a virus and her immune system attacked it causing her blood vessels to explode. or at least thats how it was explained to me. she got pnemonia a few days ago and she's not doing so good. they said she has fungus in her lungs and now they are filling up with water. ive been crying all day ( Read more... )

september 28th, 2009. a day to remember.

gene moved the rest of his stuff out of the house. im left pretty much with nothing. he even took the laundry detergent. mom and zeb said it's good though cuz then i wont have anything to remind me of him...

now im working 11-11 on sunday hopefully. im not sure yet. i have to go to work today and find out. soo i wake up at 8:30 this morning. the fucking front door is wide open. no gene. i txt him where are you? u left the door wide open. he said hes "at the park ( Read more... )

so i wont be online that much anymore. gene blocked my account on the computer so i cant go online. lovely huh? oh well i dont need it. i told him i dont want to watch tv anymore. my favorite shows im just going to have to watch on dvd or something. i cant afford it ( Read more... )