score the judges liked me! after not competing for a while it's good enough. plus the fact that dr. wolf was pleased is good enough for me. of course the extra prize money helps. i find it curious how i didn't tell anyone. i suppose that's a sign i don't really strive for their attention and approval. now it's just going to sit on my little ( Read more... )

competition... eh ok, should have gone better. at least i got some practice in for march 24, but then i'll have no chance since the good people will be there. oh well, all i can do is try, the rest isn't up to me ( Read more... )

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people annoy me. they disappoint me too. probably way too much for my liking. so much so that i had a rather terrible headache from thinking about it. it's a shame we don't have so much as a hill in florida because i could really use a mountain hike right now. everywhere i look i see human fingerprints and i want to get away from it and see ( Read more... )

so i'm getting nervous. great. i just want this to be over with, and to be able to not think about music for a little while. or at least not think about the pressure it puts on me. i can think about the guitar and singing just fine, but piano and violin are scaring the crap out of me. literally, the inanimate objects themselves look daunting ( Read more... )

i'm feeling a bit more confident after a day with meltdowns and several serious pacing sessions. but yet, i'm still paranoid.

gah i'm so excited for friday. i think there will be at least 40 people. naturally i'd like a packed house, but hey i'm not an optimist. in any case we are going to be great. i with eric was home so he could see us but i'll make someone tape it. i get an adrenaline rush just thinking about it. i guess running through our set a few times has ( Read more... )

Funny funny funny

it hasn't been a dream!! yay!

and just like that, the world is so much brighter. i <3 breaks!