today i realized how ungrateful i have been for the past year.  well this isn't the first time i've realized it but i guess it's because of the season that i've finally decided to come out on this-it's been way too long.

the other day my dad started talking about how sometimes when i get things-i didn't necessarily ask for them or anything-i tend ( Read more... )

"life is like a doughnut; it's round on the outside and empty in the middle"

<3 homer simpson

Sometimes
I wish that I was the weather
You'd bring me up in conversation forever
And when it rained
I'd be the talk of the day

Sometimes
I wish that I was a cold beer
I'd rest assured that you would hold me near you
I'd be guaranteed to be just what you need

And there could be no other way
Cause you're so lame
Your tired words are all, all the same
I would ( Read more... )

today was so unusually wonderful.

i def had my hardest day of exams today but fortunately they went well.  i really felt before hand that once i read the first question of each test that i would crawl under my desk into the fetal position and just lie there until the bell rang but for some reason this light bulb went off in my head and i could do ( Read more... )

this week = stressful X 1000.  um ya on top of soccer, school, and SAT's tomorrow, i think it would be appropriate for a someone to shoot me NOW!  i really don't know what it is. maybe because finals are edging closer but life def sucks at the moment.  everything is pilling up into one huge mountain of trash and it doesn't really help me with ( Read more... )

This was such a relaxing day.  Going to church with the whole family.  Saying goodbye to my brother 'till Tuesday.  Falling asleep to pictures on a screen.  Watching every movie/show possible that I know for a fact I've seen each one about ten times prior.

It seems that every year about this time I fall into this mode where everything just seems ( Read more... )

The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

don't take away the bad; you'll never know what's good

i took a walk outside today just to feel your colors.  the colors so cool that they kept me warm underneath. i kept walking farther until we met and settled to our favorite spot.  you kissed my cheek and turned them a rosey red.  you wispered a word into each ear and i felt a tingly chill run up my spine.  we sat down together and i started to read ( Read more... )

today, i guess, was a nice day. the weather was perfect-cold to the touch-and i really only had about one and half classes today. my first two classes i watched rachel's challenge which was so moving. a speaker came in and talked to everyone about this girl named rachel scott who was the first one to be killed in the columbine hs shooting. it ( Read more... )

i wish there's was something but there's nothing...

there's nothing to say,
nothing to do,
nothing to make you feel different.

everything i do is wrong.

in general: i will never write a fucking letter when i can confront people and stand up for myself