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[huggsnotdruggs]

today was STOOPID. i applied for like 37563475674236578238 jobs....

and then i wrote a lot of stuff in a comment to maria and posted it on her LJ... and then later i realized i didn't mean it and erased it... but i think i meant it at the time...i don't know.

and now i kinda feel like shit and wanna sleep.

but i just keep on loving you all

Comments

[evilamc]

i love you so much...we need to talk...and you can allways trust me. i hope you understand that. and i hope that i haven't done anything to make you think otherwise. and i know that you never really told me everything, and i knew why...so i let it go...but i wish you would tell me whats wrong when something obvously is. i wish you would talk to me. but its cool if you dont really trust me. but i will give you one word of advice. dont stop caring, it hurts too much, not only the people around you, but mostly you. and it takes alot of effort.

[huggsnotdruggs]

i need you..and i just realized that...you care...and i get that now...it's a shock that someone cares, but i for once believe it. and it's really really scary...so i'm gonna start over, and tell you what's on my mind... cause i feel like shit, there's a lot going on in my head with everything that's going on and i really really need to talk..and i want you to be the person i can trust...because i KNOW i can...i just doubt it....and i shouldn't, cause i love you...i'll let you see the comment i left for maria...i feel so bad for erasing it but i don't know if i mean it or not because one half of me loves her so much but the other half is pissed as a motherfucker. fucking crying over nothing..it sucks. i just randomly burst into tears and i hate it..cause i feel like no one feels what i do..but i get that you'll be there.. thank you.

clueless?

[broken__bones]

i care
sry... if i did sumthing wrong

Re: clueless?

[huggsnotdruggs]

uhm ok