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welllll havent updated in a while. so enjoy this lol. not like i have anything important to say
im not gonna bore you with details about my spring break, seein as its is almost over :-( hope everybody had a good easter. bball tryouts were today. im doin great being that i just sit on the sideline doin absolutley nothing. it sucks terribly. im havin these deep thoughts that are starting to scare me. idk lately ive just been thinkin (since im not playin i have time to do that) that now is really the time to see how devoted that i want to become. i mean its the little things like instead of spending an hour online talking to people i could spend an hour on making myself a better ball handler. ive really been battling with myself about where i want to be in 3 years and if i can actually do it. i think i finally came to the decision that i really want to do this, and i really want to work hard to be the best i can. with this stupid broken foot, i can realy take a step back and think. im gonna miss out on like a month of aau and my parents are wondering the same thing that i have been thinking, how dedicated can i get. its going to set me back alot, and whenever i can get my boot off i gotta start slow and blah blah blah. so i have to work extra hard to get back in shape and up with everyone else (especially after seeing todays tryouts and how dallimore said all he wanted to do was run on teams and that we are gonna get into shape....yeaaaahea). and i think i am ready to do that. i actually went to the y yesterday for the first time in forever to work out and im sore as hell today but thats ok, and im going tomorrow. its weird (and you probably think im crazy) cuz lately everything i watch on tv or listen to or read has something to do with working hard or following your dreams or being happy. so im taking it as a sign to follow mine, and do what i love. theres a new balance comercial that i saw a million times i the past week that says " there are two motivations for sports. which one is yours? for love or money?" idk that really hit home. so that about sums up everything.
i guess i just had to get it out.