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so i feel really mature.
and only i know why; well maybe a few more people?
i talked with marcus today, and he assured me of a lot of things i had been questioning. haha deep spiritual things dealing with cosines hahaha but it was good..
i know nothing is garaunteed.. boy, i've found that to be more than true these past few weeks; but things are gonna work out. and God has an amazing plan for my life. even though i continue to refuse it, and walk away, and turn my back, and spit at it.. He does, and He's STILL waiting for me to go "oh, duh.."
but any way, i had a super thanksgiving. it started out kinda rough, cause as usual, my world fell apart this morning when i couldnt find an outfit. (i know, life is rough) but i soon got over it on the ride over to gamas house. it was so fun there and there was a super duper surprise.
meet missy.
she's like 3 months old or something, and my grandparents found her in their yard like 2 weeks ago and no one claimed her so BOOM they got a new kitty. she's the sweetest thing ever, too. she brings sooo much energy to that house too and livliness to my grandparents, so it was good to see them with her :)
after we ate, an of course great meal, we put up my gamas tree, and missy immediately began destroying it by climbing up, swating ornaments, and then falling branch to branch down the tree again- it was great to watch though.
after alll that, and taking pics *ow that was rough hahaha* we celebrated my birthday// a little early i know, but it was fun. i got some amazing stuff, its great. my mom is the most creative and intuative person i think ive met. she picks up on the tiny hints that i dont even remember giving? haha thats cause i probably gave them last january but whatever. it was amazing.
i really am so lucky, and im so ungrateful about 99.9999992% of the time. its pathetic.
i also learned two disgusting lesson about moods... but that's really here nor there
today was a splendid day overall though.
i even talked to brian.
it was good.
i'm getting better, i know.
OMG IT SUCKS SOOO MUCH, but im sooo thankful to have him as a friend,
plus i mean i realized because we've been going out for so long i've basically distanced myself from everyone, so for a while (or at least while i try to re-kindle some frienships) he's all i have to talk to so its been a bittersweet experience with him the past two weeks or so
he called me yesterday, kinda randomly and out of teh blue, so that was pretty swell. made me feel pretty splendid and gave me a great smile for the rest of the day.
any way, i finished cutting out all the "c's" for those man-eating scarves i had to do and hopefully mom and i will finish.. tomorrowish or friday. aah im supposed to do something with layner tomorrow since i havent seen her in AGES and we might hang with andy and mark because i havnt seen lil markypoo in like 6 months *yikes* and i have to see all his new tattoos ahaha SPEAKING OFFF lol ... :-X shhh any way;; so that'll be nice cause i havnt seen all of them in a while; omg i need to work on yearbook
i really am a skatter-brain.
and i have so much to do; oye vey.
hmm i still have lots to think about
and lots to do
and LOTS to improve on, no?
hmm...i hate to sound selfish, but pray for me?
wellwellwell..
until then, time will tell.
HAH. im such a fag.
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