Journal #2 - Struggle

Nov 27, 2015 17:43

Today has been a bit of a struggle ( Read more... )

lethargic, journal #2, no motivation, feeling, habits

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hummingbird133 November 27 2015, 11:01:53 UTC
Thank you yes I'm hopeful something will come up my recruitment agency are great I see them about once a fortnight in between my own job search.
It was a nightmare I still cannot believe I lasted so long in that joint! I guess my coworkers as well as the work was a saving grace. I was fortunate working from a proper desk; however the others girls had to work from a kitchen bench! It sounds crazy I know even talking about it is bizarre. Including me there were 3 other women that left within the span of nine months - One lasted a week longer than me, the other lasted 6 months and the third lady only lasted 2 weeks. I like to think I have a pretty good sense of humour but that place took the cake! So let's just say that my employment agency has since cut all ties with that company.

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banderils November 27 2015, 10:25:48 UTC
That must have been so hard to work in an environment like that and I'm surprised that you lasted as long as you did. I hope that you find something a lot less stressful in your search.

I find it incredibly hard to get motivated when I'm not feeling 100%. I try and break things down into smaller tasks when I feel this way and I find it helps, mostly.

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hummingbird133 November 27 2015, 11:09:46 UTC
Yeah it was hard but coworkers and occupying myself with certain work tasks really helped some days. As bad as it was some days were good and if the managers were out at a meeting or out of the house for a couple of hours the whole mood changed in the house and the guys would come back in between jobs and we would joke and have a laugh. They were the times that got me through. But as soon as the managers returned that doom and gloom feeling came back it was awful, especially now thinking back. I still cannot believe that there are businesses out there like this that run each and every day. It just blows my mind.

I like your idea of doing smaller tasks instead of just a whole of stuff in once. Some days I even find doing just small odd jobs such an effort. For the past few years I have been so organized and just pushed myself through my feelings even when I couldn't do it. Just hard trying to push through when nothing is budging.

Thanks for the comment appreciate your thoughts.

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banderils November 27 2015, 12:43:08 UTC
I'm surprised they had a business to run, when they behaved like that. I'm glad that it wasn't like that all the time though. At least that was something.

I often feel unmotivated and then I start to feel guilty that I feel incapable of doing anything. I'm just coming through a really bad patch with my depression *Touches wood* and I know how difficult it can be at times to get on and do the simplest of things. I'm also like you, organised, and I feel awful when I let things slide. It can become a vicious cycle.

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rubyelf November 27 2015, 12:54:39 UTC
I've been trying to find a job I can survive between working and doing my Master's... it's tricky when you need to be able to adjust your schedule for classes , and it gets rough right about now, when it's finals week and everything is all due at the same time.

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