And just when I thought I might be getting better, my insides hurt again. This sucks.

I passed! I'm a 2nd kyu! Exciting. Happy with myself for the most of it, still a few things I need to work on.

Lately my participation in Kendo training has been lacking. I've been pulling out because I've been feeling like I was going to faint/puke or I hurt, or couldn't breathe ( Read more... )

So i had another ultrasound yesterday. It was really uncomfortable, as they make you have a full bladder and then proceed to press really hard on your stomach. The lady who did it was really nice and understanding, and I could tell she was really trying to help me out. We did 3x as many scans as she would usually do, asking me to do some with a ( Read more... )

I'm in a period of 'don't want to'. I have an ultrasound in half an hour, but I don't want to go. I don't want to find out what is wrong with me, I'm afraid of what it'll show. I don't want to go to uni. I don't want to work. I don't want to go to Kendo, or smile or see anyone. I don't want to just... be. That's all I'm doing right now. I'm just ( Read more... )

Went to see a new doctor today. She has no idea either, so she's issued more tests. She gave me this new medicine which makes my stomach hurt. She says it'll go away soon, hopefully even stop it. In the mean time I have to do another ultra sound.

So tired. Grumpy. Tired. Grumpy grumpy grumpy, tired.

I'll shut up about it all now.

I've decided. I'm not changing myself. For anyone.
If you don't like me the way I am, I'm sorry, but this is all you'll get.

Ok. I lied. Teaching is hard. I'm worried that I'm just doing it all wrong.

I want to hit something. I want to punch the wall unil my knuckles bleed ( Read more... )

So I got my results back from the CT scan. Nothing. He still has no clue what it is.
I dunno whether to be happy or to be pissed.
I had my meds changed again on Wednesday, I was shaking so bad, felt dizzy, sickly. Really tired.

I should probably stop whinging to everyone. My Mum told me to stop complaining about it and just take more pain killers. ( Read more... )