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Prompt 14: "What have you most regretted losing?"
I guess I regret losing the blind certainty I used to have.
Before Lenore I was so sure about what I did and I didn’t regret anything but after her nothing’s the same.
Not anymore.
I hunt creatures and I find myself wondering about if they can be saved, if maybe they’re trying to change their ways and it kills me.
I’m a hunter.
I’m not supposed to care about these things and I’m not supposed to be second guessing myself. Not when there are lives at stake and those lives mean a hell of a lot more to the world than some undead creature trying to go straight.
God, it was just so much easier when I was so sure that every creature was as evil as the next one. I just wish I hadn’t strayed so far into the grey and I was still living in the black and white reality that I once knew.
You can’t as a hunter second guess every move you make or you’re going to end up dead and as much as I want to die whilst I’m still pretty I don’t feel like meeting the grim reaper again so soon after the last time.
I need clarity, I need to be sure, I can’t keep wondering about these things.
Not when they’re hurting people.
Muse : Dean Winchester
Fandom : Supernatural
Word Count : 222
I guess I regret losing the blind certainty I used to have.
Before Lenore I was so sure about what I did and I didn’t regret anything but after her nothing’s the same.
Not anymore.
I hunt creatures and I find myself wondering about if they can be saved, if maybe they’re trying to change their ways and it kills me.
I’m a hunter.
I’m not supposed to care about these things and I’m not supposed to be second guessing myself. Not when there are lives at stake and those lives mean a hell of a lot more to the world than some undead creature trying to go straight.
God, it was just so much easier when I was so sure that every creature was as evil as the next one. I just wish I hadn’t strayed so far into the grey and I was still living in the black and white reality that I once knew.
You can’t as a hunter second guess every move you make or you’re going to end up dead and as much as I want to die whilst I’m still pretty I don’t feel like meeting the grim reaper again so soon after the last time.
I need clarity, I need to be sure, I can’t keep wondering about these things.
Not when they’re hurting people.
Muse : Dean Winchester
Fandom : Supernatural
Word Count : 222