The world makes me sick

[hurlygrl893]

Today seemed alright.... I don't know. Lunch wasn't that great. I didn't really say much to anyone again. I just kinda sat there, minding my own business. *shrugs* oh well. All my classes sucked. Science, we had a quiz and went outside to the track for an experiment. So yeah.. I talked to Jarrett a little bit, he's so frigin hilarious, he makes me

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[fallen_x_down]

rubberbands = amazing
I havent cut for like a couple weeeks because of them
seriously
but one of my friends took mine becuase they said rubberbands werent good either! i was like hey..no :P
so im on a mission to find another

[hurlygrl893]

rubberbands are amazing, lol.
They aren't that bad though because you don't bleed and they don't leave you scars.
so it's all good, lol.
i have 2 of them.. but the tan one doesn't do anything for me
but the big chunky black does.
my wrist went numb.
Just think of it this way... every time you snap the rubberband on your wrist that counts for every cut and scar.
Good luck trying to find another one, lol.
~<3333~

my other defender buddy..haha YES

[anonymous]

Hey Megan..its Amanda Ziehm...I'm sorry about how your feeling down and stuff and i do agree that the rubber band thing is way better than cutting..but i jsut wanted to let you know that I have gotten to know you at soccer and last year at basketball..and dude your just awesome..your sucha a good person..and i mean i don't even know you extremely well..but your just always so nice..and even tho you might be hurt on the inside..it seems like your always smiling and making everyone feel better..I am always here if you want to talk tho...because i went through hard times last year too...but things eventually brighten up...and considering your sucha great girl..You'll find life getting so much better passing down the road..But it seems that you have a boyfriend that cares a lot about you and friends also..well thats all i wanted to say...heres to more kick ass times at soccer!! woo kicking ass..us defenders..haha see you later dude

-amanda

Re: my other defender buddy..haha YES

[hurlygrl893]

AMANDA!
lol, thanks for the comment. =). It made me laugh and smile. Like I'm not ashamed of my cutting or anything, but I know that if I were to do it again.. there would be major consequences to pay. I always try to hide my depression and problems from other people because I know it's not worth showing sometimes. I hope life gets easier soon because I need it so badly right now. Kyle's amazing to me and I couldn't ask for better. =). Thanks for everything. Soccer kicks ass, lol, even though we've lost a bunch of our games. tehehe. If you ever wana talk to me, then just IM me at xsokillmegntlyx Love ya. Bye.
~Meghan~