Comments | hurricaneoflove: leaving this one open.

hurricaneoflove

leaving this one open.

Jan 25, 2008 01:29

Now that I'm calmer, past the shock, past the out-rage, past asking the questions, I can finally update with something of substance. Not necessarily of real life, but roleplay these days is an extension of how I'm feeling in reality, so it's so difficult to address ( Read more... )

in memoriam: heath., rambles: roleplay, rants: roleplay.

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caersidi January 25 2008, 08:24:23 UTC

I so appreciate what you have written here. Although I wasn't a great fan of Heath's I did admire him as an actor and was shaken by his death.

Having been a part of the same RP for so long, my thoughts also went to you because I knew how deeply you played both he and Orlando and could not imagine how this must be effecting you and Robin both as well as the community as a whole.

My inner Kirsten, who had been dormant for a while, woke up and was feeling her own grief for the loss of her friend and what Julia was going through. At that point I so regreted leaving because she wanted to be there for Julia and others, including Orlando (knowing ooc you played both). Still what's done is done and I am glad at least I could comment here.

I'm sorry to hear the reaction of some people, grief is not something I think all can cope with but a good writer knows these things don't vanish quickly. The reality of the game and the authenticity that you and others bring to it is important and if a few folk need to be shaken up, so be it.

hurricaneoflove January 25 2008, 08:36:58 UTC

I think what shakes me is that people are always talking about how little reality there is in roleplay, how so few people follow real life events. I didn't see any other way to handle this as it shocked not only us, but everyone else. I can understand people not wanting to be reminded all the time, but in game, there was no one closer to Heath than Julia, so it is natural that she among all others be given the right to mention him as often or as little as she feels necessary - especially without being harrassed by fellow members anonymously.

I'm glad you enjoyed this and can at least appreciate what we're trying to do. Your Kiki is greatly missed.

caersidi January 25 2008, 09:07:33 UTC

My goodness, of course Julia needs to be free to express her grief. I logged on as Kirsten the other day and as she hadn't unfriended me got so tearful at her entry as well as the memorial notice you'd posted.

I do appreciate what you are trying to do and support it.

You've touched me deeply with what you've said about my Kiki. I guess I felt she'd become such a ghost in the game it was time to leave. :( Now I wish she was able to be there for her close friends.

hurricaneoflove January 25 2008, 23:24:28 UTC

It's so heartbreaking. Julia wrote Heath a private post today, a final goodbye and I had to read it in pieces because it was just so hard to keep from just sobbing. It's so sad. It's hard not to cross the IC/OOC line in this case. I don't know whose emotions I am acting on and it's scary.

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eireangel560 January 28 2008, 18:28:43 UTC

I'm so glad that you wrote this. You were the first one I thought of when I heard the news and I raced to get online the moment I realized it was true.

partycrashers April 26 2008, 12:45:37 UTC

I feel like this is incredibly creepy and stalkerish but I was clicking throughout the internet and just wanted to say something. I had you added on GJ for awhile at ~guncontrol, I believe it was and I think we may have played against each other as Heath/Michelle once upon a time? I could be wrong but either way. I just wanted to say that I watched all that bullshit go down in rpvents and I thought it was unfair for people to be so judgmental. I commend everyone who's handled his death maturely IC as well as OOC, so I just really wanted to say kudos.

hurricaneoflove May 5 2008, 21:44:17 UTC

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you.

But I think so too. At ~centrepoint on GJ? I appreciate your words, as it was a hard time to go through with him. It was hard because it was so sudden; the muse was very much alive while - the obvious. It was hard to get him to be quiet and it took me a long time to remember that I couldn't just login and write as him.

Thank you for writing. I would love to add you if you don't mind.

partycrashers May 6 2008, 14:00:03 UTC

It's absolutely okay, don't apologize! Oh no, I was at ~centrepoint but as Busy. I know we wrote together somewhere because I had you added at ~sidi but all the gj names fail me now. I can only imagine! I know this sounds fickle probably because in the grander scheme of things his family is without him and everything, but it felt like such a big shock to me since I was playing Michelle when it happened. Life and its curveballs, hm? Of course, I've added you back even if I don't really use this journal!

hurricaneoflove May 6 2008, 22:14:26 UTC

Well, we probably still talked quite a bit, if I remember correctly. I still have ~sidi, but on IJ now. I love that UN something fierce, even if I couldn't get it here. And I know - I was in tears for weeks and I still really can't even think too much about it without getting that way. It was so sudden. And where did you play Michelle? I felt for anyone who played people who knew him in anyway when it happened. It was such a whirlwind.