I wont let this build up inside of me..
Can anything possibly get harder? Moose decided to be a complete ass today. He basically told me to break up with Gerald and go out with Susan cause its not going to work with me and Gerald. After this weekend, i want to make it work. Im not going to lose something this amazing because of distance...I seriously think i love him.
Also, at the dinner table he decided to yell at me for the way i eat spagetti. So then my mom got into a fight with him and basically i just caused a fight for the rest of the night. All there ever is, is yelling. Im so sick of it...Im sick of being here, im sick of going to my dads, im sick of going to school, and work just makes like a whole lot harder. I just want to escape this and leave. I hate this place right now. I hate everything about New Hampshire at this point.
This is what i want to happen but i know never will...I want to move in with Gerald and his family. Go to his school, and work with him again. Make new friends, start over...not have to deal with any of this family bull shit. Because for once, both sides of the family hate me. Its getting ridiculous. Im tellin ya, im gonna stay a week there one of these days. Even though their vacations are different...i wanna take a week off and stay there. Its the only place that i feel happy.
Im sick of getting pot for people too. I think im about done with the whole delivery shit. I think im stressed out. Kill me please.