I was going to just scan this...
but no one can ever read my hand writing... This is what I wrote before going to sleep.
I really do like Fall Out Boy! I don't care what people think! Mr. Stump is great, mutton chops and all. They make me happy and I sing along, LOUDLY!! So, my friends, they're pretty awesome, it's odd to think that the first time I ever talked to Ed was through LJ. It made me feel as if I knew him before meeting him, He was one of the three guys at the time that gave me hope, and made me think that there were actually guys out there that were good people and worth my time. Without even knowing him in person, he made me want to be a better person, once I met him, he continually amazed me with the person he is. I look up to him, even back in the day I did, he trusts in his faith with all of his being, it's something I feel I could never truly achieve, or just won't allow myself to. I remember going to church and seeing him worship, it would actually make me cry, to have such a passion, I don't think I've ever had or seen such a passion, for anything. Gleni, what is there to say about her, she is my best friend; I wouldn't be me without her. From the moment we met, we formed an amazing bond, despite the age difference and the fact she didn't know how to play spoons! (Her age really has nothing to do with it, she surpasses most her age, even mine!) We bonded over such things as gays and how Christians can have such an actual hatred for them, and how wrong they are. A month and a half or two months later, we were on a road trip together! She also amazes me, everything she has been through, the craziness that is her daily life, yet she's the person she is and continues to be, while being super smart! She's an amazing writer, one of the many reasons she is the brain smarts and I am the street smarts when it comes to this friendship! We are one, we talk without talking, the one and only fight I don't count as a fight, we make up nicknames for strangers and people we know alike, so much, if Gleni was a man, or vise versa, we'd be the perfect couple, instead we are BFFs, next year is going to be totally awesome!
I have a lot of issues; I've told, at the most 3 or 4 people some of these things, however, I’ve started to draw again. I’m actually enjoying it, this is surprising me, and not saying that the product is good, but it's something. I fell like maybe that passion is coming back, which if you talked to me about my issues you would understand. This is just another reason I feel like Boston is so right, and it's all going to work out! This summer is going to be awesome as well! London for New Years Eve?!? I hope so, once Ed finds out what's up and if I save enough money by September to get either the plane tickets or reserve the apartment!
Gemma is coming in June or July, I'm excited about that, let's hope I haven't moved yet! I love Gemma as well, she's great people. I also love Miss Amanda jean, no matter what has happened recently. She will always be someone I consider a good friend. There are people I want to continue in the direction of truly calling them friends. I want to get to know them better, let them actually get to know me; we will see how that ends up. I'm not getting my hopes up for them to be up to the Gleni or Ed par, which would be too difficult!
I'm hoping once I move I can get that one good guy friend that I used to have, like parker. I can't say Jesse because I ended up really liking him, I don't need that, I want the guy like Parker, where I go for walks (I used to go for drives, but I won't have a car in Boston.) and talk about life and guys and ladies. I miss that, I also miss liking someone I truly liked Jesse, he is the one and only person I have ever liked in such a way. It was something real, based on what such a relationship should be based upon on and started from a close friendship! Okay in the end; I have some awesomely great friends, if you don't know these people, well then that sucks for you, you're missing out!
<3Heather.x.
sleep. 6:16 Am. march 1st 2006
ps. - I really love the song I have playing on my, myspace, its lovely!
[On the side of the paper]*I FEE LIKE PEOPLE ARE IN CONSTANT NEED FOR ATTENTION AND IN THE END, THAT WILL FORCE THEM TO BE ALONE FOREVER. (INCLUDING MYSELF SOMETIMES)[/on the side of paper]
March 1st, 2006. 1:54pm.
hahah, the USED - The Taste of Ink just came on, sometimes such things, really make me love life!!!!
I really do like Fall Out Boy! I don't care what people think! Mr. Stump is great, mutton chops and all. They make me happy and I sing along, LOUDLY!! So, my friends, they're pretty awesome, it's odd to think that the first time I ever talked to Ed was through LJ. It made me feel as if I knew him before meeting him, He was one of the three guys at the time that gave me hope, and made me think that there were actually guys out there that were good people and worth my time. Without even knowing him in person, he made me want to be a better person, once I met him, he continually amazed me with the person he is. I look up to him, even back in the day I did, he trusts in his faith with all of his being, it's something I feel I could never truly achieve, or just won't allow myself to. I remember going to church and seeing him worship, it would actually make me cry, to have such a passion, I don't think I've ever had or seen such a passion, for anything. Gleni, what is there to say about her, she is my best friend; I wouldn't be me without her. From the moment we met, we formed an amazing bond, despite the age difference and the fact she didn't know how to play spoons! (Her age really has nothing to do with it, she surpasses most her age, even mine!) We bonded over such things as gays and how Christians can have such an actual hatred for them, and how wrong they are. A month and a half or two months later, we were on a road trip together! She also amazes me, everything she has been through, the craziness that is her daily life, yet she's the person she is and continues to be, while being super smart! She's an amazing writer, one of the many reasons she is the brain smarts and I am the street smarts when it comes to this friendship! We are one, we talk without talking, the one and only fight I don't count as a fight, we make up nicknames for strangers and people we know alike, so much, if Gleni was a man, or vise versa, we'd be the perfect couple, instead we are BFFs, next year is going to be totally awesome!
I have a lot of issues; I've told, at the most 3 or 4 people some of these things, however, I’ve started to draw again. I’m actually enjoying it, this is surprising me, and not saying that the product is good, but it's something. I fell like maybe that passion is coming back, which if you talked to me about my issues you would understand. This is just another reason I feel like Boston is so right, and it's all going to work out! This summer is going to be awesome as well! London for New Years Eve?!? I hope so, once Ed finds out what's up and if I save enough money by September to get either the plane tickets or reserve the apartment!
Gemma is coming in June or July, I'm excited about that, let's hope I haven't moved yet! I love Gemma as well, she's great people. I also love Miss Amanda jean, no matter what has happened recently. She will always be someone I consider a good friend. There are people I want to continue in the direction of truly calling them friends. I want to get to know them better, let them actually get to know me; we will see how that ends up. I'm not getting my hopes up for them to be up to the Gleni or Ed par, which would be too difficult!
I'm hoping once I move I can get that one good guy friend that I used to have, like parker. I can't say Jesse because I ended up really liking him, I don't need that, I want the guy like Parker, where I go for walks (I used to go for drives, but I won't have a car in Boston.) and talk about life and guys and ladies. I miss that, I also miss liking someone I truly liked Jesse, he is the one and only person I have ever liked in such a way. It was something real, based on what such a relationship should be based upon on and started from a close friendship! Okay in the end; I have some awesomely great friends, if you don't know these people, well then that sucks for you, you're missing out!
<3Heather.x.
sleep. 6:16 Am. march 1st 2006
ps. - I really love the song I have playing on my, myspace, its lovely!
[On the side of the paper]*I FEE LIKE PEOPLE ARE IN CONSTANT NEED FOR ATTENTION AND IN THE END, THAT WILL FORCE THEM TO BE ALONE FOREVER. (INCLUDING MYSELF SOMETIMES)[/on the side of paper]
March 1st, 2006. 1:54pm.
hahah, the USED - The Taste of Ink just came on, sometimes such things, really make me love life!!!!