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Mar 04, 2006 15:36

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somehow I missed this post last week...I never read it. Strange. dissembler March 7 2006, 18:24:44 UTC

Hope is an interesting concept--we will have to talk for a while about this one. For now, I'll just write a bit about what I do with hope ( ... )

Re: somehow I missed this post last week...I never read it. Strange. hyarrostar March 7 2006, 20:16:55 UTC

Ah...distracting me again. Kristin was passing out a test just as I got the fwd of your comment ( ... )

Re: somehow I missed this post last week...I never read it. Strange. dissembler March 8 2006, 06:01:19 UTC

yeah, I've been thinking about the "being myself vs. who I wish to be" problem. I don't know how it will work out in the end. I do know that my whole life I have been training my brain (in various ways) while reaching and striving to be who I want to be...and I am done for a while. I am just going to be me--exactly what I am now. I am going to accept the 31 years of fucked up shit, 18 years of christian brainwashing, 14 years of therapy, many years of excessive philosophical thinking, etc.etc. and whatever the mixture of that has turned me into I'm just going to accept. [sorry, for that slight freak-out].

In terms of being reckless or careful etc.
It seems like one can be hopeful and reckless while still not having expectations. I mean it depends what part you are reckless about. I also think that it is always fine to be reckless with hope etc. and have expectations--there is nothing "wrong" with it--it just breaks your heart more often.