Bored at work
Figured I haven't posted for a while so now is as good a time as any.
So "Mike" was around a lot last week. I can't decide if I'm just paranoid or if he and their department's team leader have been talking about me. I feel like they keep sending furtive looks in my direction.
On the whole John / Oscar thing... They've both been away a lot. Together and seperately. Maybe its too much slash fic but i keep having inappropriate thoughts about their abscences. John has a VERY longterm girlfriend!
Anyways, I had actually started to feel for a moment there that Oscar might be interested. Maybe the bad genetics I presumably inherited from my dad are a turn off? I dunno but he hasn't really been trying to talk to me and now there's another one I really like. He's a film/English student also from my class. He looks a bit like James Dean and he's very active in class. I like it when guys are smart - not so smart to make me feel stupid but I like intellectual guys.
Did I mention all of these boys from my my class are younger than me? I feel a bit like a creeper. Why can't I like anyone my own age? I think I'm just lonely and also shouldve left university a couple years ago. I've even caught myself flirting with 2 first years in my department! One of them is 19! I'll be 24 soon!!!!
Although, I suppose I'm just crazy because Mike is a superior at work and abot 35 or 36 years old and that's WAY more WRONG. Even if it doesn't feel like it. I must just be lonely because I've even been thinking warm cuddly thoughts about my friend (just friend) who's coming back from his parents' in Jersey. I'm having dinner with him one of these days and I'm going to have to avoid alcohol or I might screw up our 3 year friendship.
GARG! I thought this stupid boycraziness was supposed to finish with my teen years!!.
On a more awesome note: My dad's doing well and my parents are actually getting along better than ever! Mom's always almost playfully scolding him not to exert himself and they just laugh and joke more than they did before. Mom's been a lot more chill. I guess there really are silver linings to every cloud. :)
And here's some chalk graffiti I found during a break last week.
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