[Series] Contract Dating; Chapter 3 - Party Changes.
Title: Contract Dating
Original author: yama君
Translation: hydeist_haido
Rating: Overall PG-15/R
Pairing/Characters: Gackt/Hyde, Tetsuya, Kristy (OC)
Notes: This is a translated fic for yuki_kumi. The original text is in Chinese. ^.^
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, the OC and the plot.
“You’re awake,” When I wake up I see him lying by my side, touching my hair.
“Yep,” I reply softly. I lost all of my strength to him during the previous night. I want to get up, but I can’t, because my whole body is aching.
“You’re too weak,” He whispers as he caresses my face with a tinge of pamper.
Wait… ‘Pamper’? Why did I use this word on him? He is always torturing me for fun, why would he pamper me?
“Is it that I’m weak, or you were just too harsh last night?” He always thinks what he says is correct, even if it’s wrong; would he pass the blame to others?
“Can’t you just be a little more cooperative?” he whispers softly, does he even feel sorry for making me pass out?
“I remembered telling you, don’t even think of you have control over me! You have my body now, what else do you want?”
“Your heart!”
~*~
The shower water seems to have no use in washing away that man’s scent, I scrub my body from top to toe again, my appearance may look clean, what about within me?
I want a way to wash away his scent completely, I hate it!
I start to regret this decision of mine, if I denied him from the start; I wouldn’t have to end up like this today. He’s too dangerous; I can’t even guess what he has in his mind.
Being with him is just way tiring and tough.
I’m his toy; I can’t have any judgments by my own, can I? I let him use me in whatever ways he wants. He gets more aroused if I keep refusing him, like when he’s inside me, not giving me a chance to say ‘no’! And now he says he wants my heart.
The only thing that money can’t purchase is a person’s feelings to others. What he needs to do now is to try to please me and make me feel good, but when he does it’ll be the end of me. So why should I give away the thing I treasure the most to him?
I touch my body, I can’t wash the dirtiness away and it disgusts me. When would all of this end? Be patient, I tell myself, perhaps everything would be better when Kristy graduates.
“Go change, I want you to go to the party with me!” His unbearable voice rings out.
“You are supposed to ask a woman to accompany you,” Why must I go?
“Dress as a woman then!”
“No!” A plaything has its own dignity too; this is no doubt the biggest shame I have ever felt!
“You don’t have the right to refuse!” He hugs me tightly with might, nearly breaking me, I merely bite my lip and tolerate him, “You can’t defy me!” I know what will happen if I disobey him, but…
“Are you afraid people will find out that you’re gay?” Impossible, he seems to don’t care what people think of him because of his self-confidence.
“I just want to show them your beauty.”
“Or is it just that you want to show off your Barbie doll?” Oh yes, a pet like me does not have any use besides being showed off, am I correct?
“I’d never treated you as my doll because a doll doesn’t disobey its master!” He kisses away my tears as he embraces me, “Just be a good boy and change your clothes, okay?” His gentle tone has actually lightened up my heart.
~*~
In just minutes my clothes have been changed by him.
The clothing is not that worse as I expected, it’s a black androgynous evening dress [1], nothing too exposing or shameful, still, I do not like it one bit.
I’m a man, why should I wear such clothes?!
He brings me to a mirror and smiles with satisfaction. “You look beautiful, Hideto,” He says as he combs my slightly curly long hair with his hand.
And now he calls my beautiful! That word is not even suitable to describe a man! I look at my reflection in the mirror; it is just like an empty shell that is now being controlled by other man.
“You think so? Now I don’t look like a man or a woman!” I say mockingly as tears escape my eyes.
This is such a shame!
“You don’t like it, do you?”
I turn my face away from him, ignoring his question. Even though I dislike it, surely he would still want me to wear this ridiculous clothing.
“Well, I do enjoy teasing you!” He tilts my chin, forcing me to look at him, “You’ll be the spotlight of the party, Hideto.”
~*~
In the end I went to the party with him… wearing this dress.
As he expected, everyone’s eyes are focused on me. Is it really because of my appearances? Perhaps most of the reason is because of the man beside me. In a group of upper class rich people, he still is the most breath-taking one. A perfect face, a slender body, good endeavours and wealth… he is excellent and has everything. I am merely his companion at the mean time.
Since we entered the room-or rather, hall-his arm have not left my waist once, not allowing me a chance to run away. I hate this atmosphere and the way they cast glances at me.
“Mr Camui! I-“A beautiful woman greets as she paces towards us, her big eyes not daring to look straight into Gackt’s eyes. She must be his admirer.
“Leave!” His voice makes the others around him shudder.
The woman before us seems to be frightened by his tone of speaking; she merely stands at the spot, not knowing what to do. A man with golden brown eyes walks towards.
“There’s no need to be that fierce to a lady, Gackt,” he says. The woman starts sobbing as she glares daggers at me, while that man scrutinizes me.
“May I know who this gentleman is?” He actually knows that I’m a man, whereas the woman looks at me with shock, her eyes as big as dinner plates.
“You don’t need to know !” Gackt replies angrily.
“I think we should leave then,” The other man smiles at me. He slips his hand around her waist and walks away. The woman briefly turns around to glance at the man beside me, her eyes full of affection, as if she hasn’t got over him yet.
“She’s just my ex-lover, I got tired of her after spending a few nights with her.” he whispers by my ear.
“I don’t want to know your past. Are you telling me all of these to let me understand that you’re callous?” Telling the woman who loves you to go away without returning her greet. He has a heart as cold and hard as stone, those who fall in love with him would only be heartbroken.
“I’m just afraid you’d get jealous,” he smiles a beautiful smile.
“Don’t joke with me. Me, jealous?”
“Ah, you don’t have to, or else you’re no difference with those stupid bitches.” Being mocked for falling in love with him? That really isn’t a good thing, is it? Thank God I will never fall in love with him, for a second there I feel relieved.
“You’re spacing out again,” he hisses as he hands a glass of liquor to me, “Drink it down!”
“I don’t want to!” I refuse as I know the liquor in the glass he has there is a high-alcohol drink, but he does not listen.
“I want you to drink it!” I can see fury in his blue eyes, “Don’t let me repeat for the third time!”
I take the glass from him, and once I downed all of its contents in one gulp I run to the washroom. The liquor chokes me; tears can’t stop streaming down my cheeks. My stomach burns as I puked at the sink.
“I thought you’re capable of drinking that wine,” Gackt walks into the washroom seconds later. He pats my back to make me feel better, his voice gentle and soft. Does this count as his apology?
I ignore him as I feel like vomiting again, but nothing comes out as I had already puked all of the food I ate earlier. I squat on the floor weakly, it would be better if I just die. He pulls me on my feet, holds me against his chest and hands me another cup.
I whimper as I push away the cup, I would really die if I drank it.
“It’s just plain water,” he says as he pats my tensed back, “you’ll feel better after you drink it.”
He slowly downs the water into my throat, and when he’s done, he gently lifts me up to leave the party. He’s extremely gentle to me that night. Will he be like this only if he hurts me? I can’t understand him…
[1] The original author, yama kun, did not state what the androgynous 'clothing' is and how it looks like so I wrote in 'evening dress'... Hope that's alright with the other fans. ^.^;;