I worked out twice today, I ate well, I feel good. I read some tonight, some poetry, I feel whole. I feel different today, something I haven't felt in a while, something pure, decent in me, something, someone trying to get out in front and stay out leading the pack down a road of wellness and self-awareness and wisdom.

Later,

T

I thought I was doing a noble thing once my Grandmother was put into the nursing home. She was still a little "crazy" from all the toxins left in her bloodstream while her kidneys failed, all better now, but still some whackyness around. I thought I would read her poetry since she loved to read but was not yet sane enough to use her motor skills ( Read more... )

One of the greatest bits of poetry ever ___At least to me ( Read more... )

i have my tux measurements here. just a surprise to me i guess, i thought they would be bigger. i am making my new sexy debut at the wedding and i hope that everyone will be surprised to see what i look like. i need to figure out what to do with my hair. i sound like a girl. talking about my hair and shit. it is important to me to make an ( Read more... )

I really feel good today. i have decided not to let all the things going on in my life upset me anymore and depress me by overwhelming me with guilt. guilt that is not intended but guilt that i put on myself for stupid reasons. i am going to stop being afraid of what i am responsible for. i am going to live my life to the fullest.

later.

i came to the realization today sitting in traffic that my problem is that i lack perspective. there is nothing that i want that i can't obtain. the only difference is that i lack the perspective to achieve anything unless the pain of the same is greater than the pain of change. i read that somewhere along the line. i think it was "your perfect ( Read more... )

There are many things that I truly enjoy in life. My wife, my goals, my potential. Cigarettes are one of them I cherish the most. I am not addicted to nicotine. Let me reiterate, I am not addicted to nicotine. I enjoy smoking to the most pleasurable degree ( Read more... )

I got an eye patch today. My first one ever, I think. Hopefully my last one ever. It is very uncomfortable. VERY UNCOMFORTABLE!!!!! I think it is systematically pulling out my eyelashes. PAIN. Other than that, everything is fine. I go back to the doctor tomorrow and see about aborting this damn thing. I hope he's onboard with the idea of ( Read more... )

its times like these, late at night, just me and my computer that i miss human contact. sure my cat is always whining and trying to bite me and climb up on the back of my chair. but i miss her. i really do. she has been away for so long. so long. i miss you baby. i can't wait for spring break to get here. even though i have to work nights ( Read more... )

good: i found the parts i need to complete my garden assembly. tomorrow i will go find the growing media i need to start my garden ( Read more... )