so i heard from a friend that you made out with one of my friends last night. and while my friend who told me has a tendencey for drama and for making shit up, that's not really what is troubling me right now. cause if you wanted to make out with people, you could. i mean, not like i could stop you even if i was there, but i just kinda feel like if ( Read more... )

my neck hurts from bowling all day yesterday. not that you bowl with your neck, but that's just what's goin on. it's fuckin raining right now! i'm so stoked! it never rains out here. how weird. and i'm listening to daft punk cause i'm way more scene than you. i was listening to the number twelve looks like you but my roomates made me turn it ( Read more... )

so....i started work at lowe's this week. it was fun. i dug it. leah came and visited me last night. it was fun. i dug it. i have 90 clean off of drugs and alcohol today. it was fun. i dug it.


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ten days since my last entry. seems like it has been longer than that. i have a very poor concept of time sometimes. like, when i'm am waiting for something or looking forward to somthing, the days seem to drag on like a fat man in a desert without water. but when i go back to orange county and visit, i just end up feeling that i want to stay ( Read more... )

god, i hate to admit it. i thought you would be the first one to cave, but i guess not. so here it goes:

i miss orange county. i'm gunna move back. probably in the next two-five months.

and the way things are shaping up i might be in a band again pretty soon here.

i got scrapes on my knees cause you keep dragging me down
but i know it's just me cause there's no one around
i am no longer okay with the idea of failing in your eyes
or breaking my promises and making you cry.

"let's have a nice clean cut"

hey bros. i'm cool. two months next thursday. seeing mewithoutYou on the 20th. i feel like i say the same thing over and over. i'm happy still.

wow. wow wow wow. i live in palm springs. i'm happy. things change. i changed. heh. a lot. but you know, i still wish i could be with her. i don't know, man. like, it's been way over a year now, and i care about her well being and i wonder if she's having a good day and all that shit. when i talk to her on the phone and i ask her how her ( Read more... )

i haven't said the word enigmatic for a while now. i always used to use that word when i would talk about you. about how there was always something about you i just couldn't put my finger on. but you know what? i'm over it. you're so fucking played out. i don't wonder anymore. i already know how it would be. you would be perfect and ( Read more... )

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha. you know, the last six months of my existence was a meth induced fit of irrational insanity