Ow. T.T

[hypomanic_poet]

So, I'm at my parents', babysitting my brothers (and house-sitting) and my sister and her friend Alicia is over for awhile to see us (and Alicia is literally like a family member to all of us) and we're all having a mostly good time, talking and reminiscing about old times. Which would be great if the conversation would stop reverting to this or

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[fallconsmate]

I'm still waiting. *hugs* and I'm 47 years old.

I've embraced it. And given a finger and the comment "have a heaping helping of blow me very much!" to relatives. *grins*

[hypomanic_poet]

Thanks *hug* I'm feeling better now. :) I wish I could embrace the things they say. It's hard to do when I'm feeling bombarded with all that negativity.

I was kinda like that when I went to bed...the "blow me very much" mood. I was burrowed under the covers with my MP3 player blaring angry music at full volume in a "fuck everything" kind of mood, and when I woke up to see my sister gone I cheered up, which is kind of sad. I rarely get to see my sister, and I do love her, of course, but every other thing she said just pissed me right off.

I was starting to think that maybe they are right. Maybe I am a horrible person, and maybe I should never be allowed to forget what I've done, stuff like that. Now that they're gone, I'm starting to get rod of those dark clouds and feel better. but UGH.

[fallconsmate]

you are not a horrible person. believe me, i'm related to some!!

and yes having your mistakes thrown in your teeth is annoying as all get-out. *hugs*

Your past post on feeling isolated...

[triospleasure]

I ran across your blog while looking up some things on line. I understand how you feel, in a way. I'm not deaf but I am learning ASL. I have found that anybody can be a snob... It's one of those things you run across in life when your black and middle class...LOL... Dont let "Haters" no matter WHO they are get to you. Don't let it slow you down

[amethyst_witch]

Noticed you added me! :) Do I know you from Pasta Land?