I am constantly switching between sweating to death and not being able to get remotely warm enough and my head feels like someone has it squeezed between a vice and my eyes hurt so bad it feels like they are about to pop out. What is wrong with me, anyone know?

I can't sleep. I keep thinking I hear my brother moving around the house or saying something and it wakes me up. I feel so lonely. Its so quiet, and creepy. I'm acting like he's like, REALLY gone or something, I'm pathetic. I didn't know someone moving out would be this hard. I guess when you no longer have someone around who is pretty much ( Read more... )

So, I broke down and finally went to see my dad. It was just killing me to not talk to him or do things with him, too much stress for me to handle. So, nervous as shit, i went over to his house, but he wasn't there.........Carrie is there so I ask her where they are, and she tells me, so I call them where they are..and my dad calls back. God I ( Read more... )

Nothing new happened today. Jess and I really didn't do much. We went to CiCi's for some pizza, and then she cheated to beat me in extreme hunting (Yeah, I know we're cool for playing a hunting game in an arcade) Uhh, then we went and shopped for her some shorts to wear when we play tennis, and some shoes better suited for sports, and a sports ( Read more... )

Basketball sucked last night. Only 5 people showed up, pretty shitty I say. The people who decided to rent the gym out don't even show up anymore. What kind of shit is that? I guess I shouldn't be too pissed with it having been Mothers Day, but its been like that a few times now. It just makes me angry because I use it as exercise, so even ( Read more... )

Realizing that you truly love someone is possibly the most frightening and wonderful experience rolled into one. Amazing the sub-emotions that love can make a person feel. I guess what they say is true...true love is something you're never able to forget, ever. I know I wouldn't be able to forget Jessica in the least if something were to happen ( Read more... )

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I really missed my sweetheart today :( I'm kinda bummed about it now that I've had time to stop and think. So used to being with her, just sucks to not feel her around. Tomorrow she's gonna get big giant hugs and kisses and I'm completely spending the day with HER.

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sometimes...just ..ugh.