sorry about my last entry,
im gay.

i think the word fuck describes how i feel entirely.
i hate everything about what is currently happening in my life.
i wish this wasnt happening.

i hate writing depressing entries so i wont go further in depth with this one.

heres to being a failure at life;

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i loved chicago
i was so afraid of college until this weekend
Columbia is amazing
i cant wait to go there.

im taking zane there next month
i can't wait.
i met a lot of amazing people
i learned a lot about myself
it was wonderful.

so here's to new adventures;

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last night, went well.
i had a good birthday.

i love boys.
there such pick-me-uppers.

thank you: to the wonderful boy who brought roses to my work for me today.

so heres to more good days;

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i guess im just a shitty person.
shitty girlfriend.
shitty friend.
yeap.

iiiiii hate myself.
i always ruin things.

i didnt mean to be mean.

i guess i deserve to have you mad at me.

heres to a happy 18th birthday to me;

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i hate being mad at you.
but you deserve my anger.

i get it now.
i figured it out.
its rather simple if i wasnt so mindless.
but i understand now,
i figured you out.
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i want more.