her breasts? I don't remember her breasts. I try not to. their lives seem impossibly charmed. missteps that seemed hazy indefinite coloring-outside-the-lines now have that same impossible weight ( Read more... )

I've planned it out. It's all kind of sick. I should have taken Computational Theory and Pattern Recognition instead of the two computer vision classes. I probably wouldn't have felt as isolated as I did trying to get into an unfamiliar research field like computer vision. But I did reveal my weakness to myself. And I have continued to. It's not ( Read more... )

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sometimes I ask myself 'what have I done to deserve this?' and the answer is there immediately 'everything' in the language of the success I chose failure, it must be a decision, and I decided I wasn't going to do the things success necessitates. initially I believe I was choosing failure just to show up success when I came from behind and defeated ( Read more... )

the lot opened and was alive. the light large rain was filling girls in black high heels with giddy energy. lines had formed at the mouths of the hook shaped strip mall. the ground slopped inwards towards my destination, a relatively quiet liquor store. dodging the headwinds of judgement from slicked black hair, dark brown spiked, tight graphic t- ( Read more... )

james sat in the soft sand rolling up first his left then right pant leg. the wind carried salt into his mouth and over his skin. the feeling was sharp and sticky, he would eventually become uncomfortable, but for now yes: air, sand, and water ( Read more... )

woke up against myself on the airplane. rather I was not on the airplane but I would be and my thoughts had put me at a kind of distance above the ground. I was on a couch gently resting head floating back. and I thought goddammit I did think this again (and then again and again, now the people have changed: I changed and it is a different girl ( Read more... )

we were touching pretty heavy ( Read more... )

cities, road & vision. girl I was gonna get next to you. after all that road. I was gonna wipe so much sweat from my brow. like all that road. the tires slow grind, tube starts to show through, threads unravel. aren't we glad for money. that it even works as well as it does. unthinking or all our thinking collapsed together ( Read more... )

no these are definitely powerful things. no your body is essentially a device of communication with other bodies. if you can't feel the own miracle of your face. if you can't gently slip into these boots of the night. I like it dark and cold or at least when the sky is gray the air chirps so constant, when each breath and stumble is a reminder, ( Read more... )