pictures of me, be excited.

[i_am_heidi]

I gave up and downloaded semagic to see if I could get it to work this way, since I have been trying for an hour to put pictures behind a cut with regular html codes and apparently I suck ass at html

Comments

[blue_mai]

oh man! i didn't really catch that you think you are stand-out-in-a-crowd ugly. i mean, i just thought you had the regular appearance issues. you are so not ugly. i didn't comment cos it's just like, hey it's you and you look cool, but i'm not so into that sorta thing (how people look) and i wouldn't really care if you were 'ugly' whatever that means.
i am also (sometimes) considered 'cute' and it's slightly annoying not being 'beautiful'* but hey, things could be a lot worse :) i also have quite nice hair.
(* but really, really, what is that? i bet J thinks you're beautiful and sexy and cute. most models aren't beautiful (to me), but most of my friends are.)

[i_am_heidi]

Most models aren't beautiful to me either, I really don't think you should be able to see someones bones. It freaks me out, it just makes me think they are emaciated and need to eat a sandwich or something

[i_am_heidi]

Aww, thank you so much. Like I told everyone else that commented, I really feel that I am ugly, like stand out in a crowd ugly, it's horrible. I wish that I didn't view myself like that, it would make life so much easier. I have amazing confidence though, which is weird, so people would never suspect that I feel that way about me when they meet me. My mom tells me that people are drawn to me because of the confidence that I give off and because I am beautiful. John tells me that when I walk into a room, I light it up and that people actually stop what they are doing to look at me, and I totally don't notice it. But I have been told that I have an infectious laugh, so it's funny that you picked up on that from the pictures. Thank you so much again, the more people tell me, the more I start to believe it, I think that seeing a psych will help a lot with the issues that I have

[breezy_o8]

you have serious issues with your view of yourself, i would seek professional help if i was you.

come again?

[i_am_heidi]

Do I know you? How exactly do I have serious issues with myself? I'm just curious since you are the only person to have anything negative to say on this post and I'm not sure that telling someone that you don't know that they should be seeking professional help, considering I am very certain you have absolutely no idea what has been going on in my life.

Yeah I may think that I'm not as cute as I really am, but did you also know that I had a 19 day old daughter die in May, so I've been having some huge things happening to me all around.

Would it really have been that hard to say something a little less critical and a little more nice?

How did you even find this post anyhow? I am very curious as to who you are.