one of these days i'm gonna leave this place...


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 hands down, i'm too proud for love.

 it'll never be good enough.
even when i get what i say i want,
i'll always want something else.

i do it to myself.
and i do it on purpose.
i'm scared shitless, so i do it to save myself.

FML.

my dreams are haunting me ( Read more... )

 tiffany called me last night for the first time in almost six months.
i heard alaura say 'i love you, aunt caitlyn' for the first time in almost six months.

i almost started crying.
i'm sick of the winter blues. i have to blame this on the weather. i'm so sick of feeling sad.

i didn't mean anything to you, did i?
i don't know why i'm so fucked up about it.
you've been engaged four times, keith.
i can't believe i wasted my first on you.
i was only planning on having one.
there's only supposed to be one.

it sucks to realize it doesn't go down that way.

Well i'd like to think i'm the mess you'd wear with pride.
like some empty dress on the bed you've layed out for tonight.
maybe i'll tell you sometime.


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used to be one of the rotten ones and i liked you for that.
so i had another dream about him the other night.

i can't actually name this person, either, because nobody really knows about this...
maybe that's what makes it so intriguing to me, nobody knows, and it will never happen.
i can't stop thinking about it. and its such a turn on. i try to ( Read more... )

 on the new radiohead album thom yorke sings like ariel from the little mermaid for about ten seconds.

 there is so much ferocity to be shared.

so last friday these two gay dudes came into the store and i taught them how to achieve a flawless, natural look.
they were hilarious, we had such much fun laughing and playing makeup. i realized again just how much i love my job.
anyway, brandon and i met up with them later with alex in dc and spent the night ( Read more... )