Translucent part 1
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~By Liz Hall
A ‘Wings Of A Fallen Angel’ fanfiction, dedicated to its creator, tamchronin. All characters are copyright to her, by law.
Story: Wings Of A Fallen Angel
Pairings: Julian and Kaed
Rating: R for sexuality and language. Not quite NC-17, though it’s tempting. xD
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Where was this going? What was the point of even running anymore? I’d been running for hours now, simply to find it profitless; trifling and frivolous; idle. It was just no good. No matter where I hid, they would locate me. No matter how fast I moved my feet, they would catch up. Oh, how I hated those caustic and just plain nasty creatures. Lyss was different, though. She wasn’t like the rest, and neither was Julian. They had accepted me and the events that had occurred within the past week of our lives. Everything I’d known and held dear to me to keep safe had been turned upside down. I’d failed on my intent and purpose, and even gone against those I’d loved, yet they’d still forgiven and kept me near. Perhaps it was this that had made me realize how much I’d loved her. I always had, but I just craved that extra something to make my suspicions come to reality. Of course, in this day and age, who even knew what reality was anymore? Was it something that happened to people as they grew, leading their mentalities into the entrapment of what they wanted to believe? Truth be told, I’d come to realize that “reality” was the illusion, rather than the universal truth.
Over there, I knew there was an old home. Its owners often vacationed and left the house abandoned in these late fall seasons. I took this advantage and set my feet on ground behind the shed that occupied the backyard. I knew there wouldn’t be any concerned people coming out to investigate a trespasser. Besides, this was the perfect location. I dimmed my magic and made my mental escape route, telling myself that I could run in any direction if they didn’t pass by me without notice. I was breathing hard, that small bit of sound blocking out even the most minimum of my hearing. It must have distracted me, or even given me a vulnerable point, because then I realized that I wasn’t alone in this dark backyard. My body tensed and I prepared to leap back into the air, ready for a hasty escape. I would not speak first. No, that would be foolish. My luck I’d do so, only to find that my enemy really hadn’t picked up on my presence yet. If I stayed quiet, maybe- What was that? Footsteps…coming closer to me. I turned on my heel, ready to leap off into the night sky in a flying bound, but I found myself quite suddenly halted. I sensed a vague familiarity. “Julian?” I whispered, hoping my accusation wasn’t incorrect.
“Enjoying your game of cat and mouse, Kaed?” His silhouette skulked closer to me and I saw that it was, in fact, my proper assumption.
“What are you doing?” I asked, my voice still low to a hiss, purely out of intent of not being detected by my hunters. For an instant, a faint wave of paranoia washed over me, fearing that maybe one the only two vampires I could consider a friend, had fallen over to the goal of capturing me as well. I wasn’t even certain what I’d done. So I’d learned a few secrets…I had no aspiration on giving the knowledge to one who should not have it. Still, I was nervous. Now that Julian was here, I’d be detected, no matter what.
“Don’t worry.” The grin on his face radiated of confidence, leading me to begin wondering what was lurking in that mind of his. “I’m not going to try and catch you. You mean too much to Alyssa for me to try anything like that. Besides, I have no desire to.”
Was that supposed to be reassuring? I’ll suppose it was, in a subconscious sense, though that didn’t delete the fact that he hadn’t answered my question. Maybe if I asked again. “What are you doing, then?”
“How many times have we encountered one another in our lifetimes, Kaed?”
“Pardon me?” Such an entirely random question sent me into a heavy spiral of confusion. I’d never bother to think of an answer for that.
“I can’t guarantee that you won’t be caught tonight, however, assuming you’re clever creature, I’m willing to bet that you won’t be.”
If that was a compliment, I took it, humbly, bowing my head in a vague thank you.
“You know, we can both die. I’ve had my fair share of near death experiences, so I’m quite surprised that you haven’t encountered many until recently. It’d be a shame to pass on while still holding onto those things we wish we’d have done before we died.”
Riddles? I didn’t particularly care for Julian when he was subtle, and he knew this. The corners of my lips dropped to a distinctive frown and all I could find myself to do was stare at him. Secretly, I found it divine how his hair picked up on that almost translucent blue effect in the wavering moonlight. The pale hue of his skin looked flawless right now. He appeared, characteristically, as a vampire would. Now answer why I was finding this enticing. He was my enemy and everything I was sworn to protect humankind from. I was not, under any circumstances, supposed to find him admirable. Of course, the same rules applied to Lyss, and look where that had gotten me. I caught my breath as he took a single step closer. If I kept this up, I’d be hyperventilating in a moment. It hit me then, exactly what he’d said. “What kind of things are you speaking of?”
It was a question that needed no words for an answer. My eyes closed, as if by native instinct, when I felt the smooth tips of his fingers brushing against the skin of my cheek. Elation stuck me, just as it would to a child who’d grabbed onto an electrical fence by accident. I felt his breath intermingling against mine and our lips touched, sending me, head first, into an onslaught of rapture. The feelings that overcame me as our mouths link, was completely indescribable, even if I tried to explain it. My God, Julian, why did your lips have to taste so good?
I’d never referred to myself as gay. Then again, I’d never referred to myself as anything involving sexuality until I’d discovered that Lyss returned my feelings for her. That’s right; Lyss. I pulled back, my eyes opening with an overwhelming disorient. After all of this, there was no doubt about the fact that I’d be tumbling into Hell in the end.
That’s what had happened. My mind was so hazed after it all, that I simply went about my plan of meeting up with Lyss at Jenn’s house as had been organized. Julian had only smiled and parted to the opposite direction. Somewhere along the line, our path’s had crossed and I’d strayed off track. It was time to correct that. Surely if my personal hunters had sensed my location, they’d be nearby, which to my knowledge, they weren’t. It was safe to continue on.
When I’d arrived, Julian and I had hardly acted as though anything had occurred. Thankfully, no suspicion arose, either.
That night was one I’d never forget. Alyssa condemned me, not even hours later. Our lives had gone from euphorically content to chaotic. Then, though the idea is still, to this day, hard for me to grasp, I was placed to go about my life without her, without the only person I’d ever honestly loved. Or was that really the case?
“How long are you going to mope out here? It’s been nearly two weeks.”
The voice broke my train of thought and I leaned, more supportively, on the wooden banister, looking outward at the fenced in backyard of the residents below us. I’d managed to successfully gain the utmost concern from everyone in my circle of friends, Julian included. “Are you trying to tell me you’re not mourning in the slightest?”
My vampire colleague stood in the doorway that led its way out onto that small balcony. He’d managed to establish himself to a new apartment, one that I’d been visiting more frequently than I’d have ever assumed myself to. “Yes, but I’ve also come to accept it.”
He made it sound simple. So simple that I envied had. Had he really perfected that ability in all his years, the one to just accept death like each passing day? “I wish it was that easy for me.”
“I never said that it was easy.”
I didn’t move from my comfortable position as his stride carried him next to where I was standing. He looked out at the black horizon that the night had brought upon us, and I noticed as his eyes softened, proving to me that what he’d just spoken was far too true. “Julian…” Maybe it was just how overly emotional I’d been lately, but being in my consort’s presence actually comforted me, but when he turned to look at me, having heard me whisper his name, I felt my heart stop at the sight of those rich hazel eyes. I’m not sure what cam over me at that time, but it wasn’t something I was used to. All I knew was that internally, I wanted something, emotionally, mentally, and also…physically. The epiphany struck and it nearly knocked me over in the process.
He must have seen this because he looked at me with that sort of puzzlement that consists of blended concern and surprise. All I could do was stare.
“Are you alright?”
I nodded, though I wasn’t completely sure, myself. What was I supposed to think right now? Maybe I wasn’t actually supposed to think. Bewildered, that’s what I was. “Do. Do you remember? Back then?” Was it going to be impossible to understand what I was getting at? Probably.
He seemed to understand, though. He lowered his head and closed those beautiful eyes, the merest suggestion of a grin exposing through. That was all I really needed to know. Even till this day, I’m not sure what surge of confidence took me over on that night, but I walked straight up to him and kissed Julian. I could feel that he was just as startled as I was by the action. For a second, I questioned on whether what I had done had been the wisest of decisions. Would he show me away and leave me standing there, flailing in embarrassment? No, not Julian. He returned the kiss I had initiated and I think my world stopped in its tracks. Maybe I did love him. I still can’t answer that. The only thing I could focus on at that time was how fulfilling that kiss was. It was almost rejuvenating. Striking back everything that’d felt drained from me over the past long and lonesome week. I had never in my wildest…well okay, maybe in my wildest, but certainly never in my normal dreams, had I ever expected myself to be standing on Julian’s balcony, kissing him. It was like my own personal slice of heaven. That night air might have been getting frigid, but I felt no cold. Our kiss crept deeper, making me certain of only a single thing.
I wanted Julian.
~By Liz Hall
A ‘Wings Of A Fallen Angel’ fanfiction, dedicated to its creator, tamchronin. All characters are copyright to her, by law.
Story: Wings Of A Fallen Angel
Pairings: Julian and Kaed
Rating: R for sexuality and language. Not quite NC-17, though it’s tempting. xD
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Where was this going? What was the point of even running anymore? I’d been running for hours now, simply to find it profitless; trifling and frivolous; idle. It was just no good. No matter where I hid, they would locate me. No matter how fast I moved my feet, they would catch up. Oh, how I hated those caustic and just plain nasty creatures. Lyss was different, though. She wasn’t like the rest, and neither was Julian. They had accepted me and the events that had occurred within the past week of our lives. Everything I’d known and held dear to me to keep safe had been turned upside down. I’d failed on my intent and purpose, and even gone against those I’d loved, yet they’d still forgiven and kept me near. Perhaps it was this that had made me realize how much I’d loved her. I always had, but I just craved that extra something to make my suspicions come to reality. Of course, in this day and age, who even knew what reality was anymore? Was it something that happened to people as they grew, leading their mentalities into the entrapment of what they wanted to believe? Truth be told, I’d come to realize that “reality” was the illusion, rather than the universal truth.
Over there, I knew there was an old home. Its owners often vacationed and left the house abandoned in these late fall seasons. I took this advantage and set my feet on ground behind the shed that occupied the backyard. I knew there wouldn’t be any concerned people coming out to investigate a trespasser. Besides, this was the perfect location. I dimmed my magic and made my mental escape route, telling myself that I could run in any direction if they didn’t pass by me without notice. I was breathing hard, that small bit of sound blocking out even the most minimum of my hearing. It must have distracted me, or even given me a vulnerable point, because then I realized that I wasn’t alone in this dark backyard. My body tensed and I prepared to leap back into the air, ready for a hasty escape. I would not speak first. No, that would be foolish. My luck I’d do so, only to find that my enemy really hadn’t picked up on my presence yet. If I stayed quiet, maybe- What was that? Footsteps…coming closer to me. I turned on my heel, ready to leap off into the night sky in a flying bound, but I found myself quite suddenly halted. I sensed a vague familiarity. “Julian?” I whispered, hoping my accusation wasn’t incorrect.
“Enjoying your game of cat and mouse, Kaed?” His silhouette skulked closer to me and I saw that it was, in fact, my proper assumption.
“What are you doing?” I asked, my voice still low to a hiss, purely out of intent of not being detected by my hunters. For an instant, a faint wave of paranoia washed over me, fearing that maybe one the only two vampires I could consider a friend, had fallen over to the goal of capturing me as well. I wasn’t even certain what I’d done. So I’d learned a few secrets…I had no aspiration on giving the knowledge to one who should not have it. Still, I was nervous. Now that Julian was here, I’d be detected, no matter what.
“Don’t worry.” The grin on his face radiated of confidence, leading me to begin wondering what was lurking in that mind of his. “I’m not going to try and catch you. You mean too much to Alyssa for me to try anything like that. Besides, I have no desire to.”
Was that supposed to be reassuring? I’ll suppose it was, in a subconscious sense, though that didn’t delete the fact that he hadn’t answered my question. Maybe if I asked again. “What are you doing, then?”
“How many times have we encountered one another in our lifetimes, Kaed?”
“Pardon me?” Such an entirely random question sent me into a heavy spiral of confusion. I’d never bother to think of an answer for that.
“I can’t guarantee that you won’t be caught tonight, however, assuming you’re clever creature, I’m willing to bet that you won’t be.”
If that was a compliment, I took it, humbly, bowing my head in a vague thank you.
“You know, we can both die. I’ve had my fair share of near death experiences, so I’m quite surprised that you haven’t encountered many until recently. It’d be a shame to pass on while still holding onto those things we wish we’d have done before we died.”
Riddles? I didn’t particularly care for Julian when he was subtle, and he knew this. The corners of my lips dropped to a distinctive frown and all I could find myself to do was stare at him. Secretly, I found it divine how his hair picked up on that almost translucent blue effect in the wavering moonlight. The pale hue of his skin looked flawless right now. He appeared, characteristically, as a vampire would. Now answer why I was finding this enticing. He was my enemy and everything I was sworn to protect humankind from. I was not, under any circumstances, supposed to find him admirable. Of course, the same rules applied to Lyss, and look where that had gotten me. I caught my breath as he took a single step closer. If I kept this up, I’d be hyperventilating in a moment. It hit me then, exactly what he’d said. “What kind of things are you speaking of?”
It was a question that needed no words for an answer. My eyes closed, as if by native instinct, when I felt the smooth tips of his fingers brushing against the skin of my cheek. Elation stuck me, just as it would to a child who’d grabbed onto an electrical fence by accident. I felt his breath intermingling against mine and our lips touched, sending me, head first, into an onslaught of rapture. The feelings that overcame me as our mouths link, was completely indescribable, even if I tried to explain it. My God, Julian, why did your lips have to taste so good?
I’d never referred to myself as gay. Then again, I’d never referred to myself as anything involving sexuality until I’d discovered that Lyss returned my feelings for her. That’s right; Lyss. I pulled back, my eyes opening with an overwhelming disorient. After all of this, there was no doubt about the fact that I’d be tumbling into Hell in the end.
That’s what had happened. My mind was so hazed after it all, that I simply went about my plan of meeting up with Lyss at Jenn’s house as had been organized. Julian had only smiled and parted to the opposite direction. Somewhere along the line, our path’s had crossed and I’d strayed off track. It was time to correct that. Surely if my personal hunters had sensed my location, they’d be nearby, which to my knowledge, they weren’t. It was safe to continue on.
When I’d arrived, Julian and I had hardly acted as though anything had occurred. Thankfully, no suspicion arose, either.
That night was one I’d never forget. Alyssa condemned me, not even hours later. Our lives had gone from euphorically content to chaotic. Then, though the idea is still, to this day, hard for me to grasp, I was placed to go about my life without her, without the only person I’d ever honestly loved. Or was that really the case?
“How long are you going to mope out here? It’s been nearly two weeks.”
The voice broke my train of thought and I leaned, more supportively, on the wooden banister, looking outward at the fenced in backyard of the residents below us. I’d managed to successfully gain the utmost concern from everyone in my circle of friends, Julian included. “Are you trying to tell me you’re not mourning in the slightest?”
My vampire colleague stood in the doorway that led its way out onto that small balcony. He’d managed to establish himself to a new apartment, one that I’d been visiting more frequently than I’d have ever assumed myself to. “Yes, but I’ve also come to accept it.”
He made it sound simple. So simple that I envied had. Had he really perfected that ability in all his years, the one to just accept death like each passing day? “I wish it was that easy for me.”
“I never said that it was easy.”
I didn’t move from my comfortable position as his stride carried him next to where I was standing. He looked out at the black horizon that the night had brought upon us, and I noticed as his eyes softened, proving to me that what he’d just spoken was far too true. “Julian…” Maybe it was just how overly emotional I’d been lately, but being in my consort’s presence actually comforted me, but when he turned to look at me, having heard me whisper his name, I felt my heart stop at the sight of those rich hazel eyes. I’m not sure what cam over me at that time, but it wasn’t something I was used to. All I knew was that internally, I wanted something, emotionally, mentally, and also…physically. The epiphany struck and it nearly knocked me over in the process.
He must have seen this because he looked at me with that sort of puzzlement that consists of blended concern and surprise. All I could do was stare.
“Are you alright?”
I nodded, though I wasn’t completely sure, myself. What was I supposed to think right now? Maybe I wasn’t actually supposed to think. Bewildered, that’s what I was. “Do. Do you remember? Back then?” Was it going to be impossible to understand what I was getting at? Probably.
He seemed to understand, though. He lowered his head and closed those beautiful eyes, the merest suggestion of a grin exposing through. That was all I really needed to know. Even till this day, I’m not sure what surge of confidence took me over on that night, but I walked straight up to him and kissed Julian. I could feel that he was just as startled as I was by the action. For a second, I questioned on whether what I had done had been the wisest of decisions. Would he show me away and leave me standing there, flailing in embarrassment? No, not Julian. He returned the kiss I had initiated and I think my world stopped in its tracks. Maybe I did love him. I still can’t answer that. The only thing I could focus on at that time was how fulfilling that kiss was. It was almost rejuvenating. Striking back everything that’d felt drained from me over the past long and lonesome week. I had never in my wildest…well okay, maybe in my wildest, but certainly never in my normal dreams, had I ever expected myself to be standing on Julian’s balcony, kissing him. It was like my own personal slice of heaven. That night air might have been getting frigid, but I felt no cold. Our kiss crept deeper, making me certain of only a single thing.
I wanted Julian.