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I'm amazed.
Max is the best thing to ever happen to me I think.
He's been there for me whenever I've needed him and he always makes me feel better no matter what the situation.
This whole thing with my mom is killing me. How can she pretend to miss us if she left us. She's a 1/4 of a mile away and she hardly sees us.
Yesterday - the world blew up.
She texted me asking me to take Jessika to work (the restaurant) with me and I was already assumed I would need to anyways... So I said "Yeah already planned on it" and she got all defensive and said I was being mean.
Okay. Right.
I'm sorry but is it my fault that she's practically abandoned us?
I know she started a new job and stuff but I'm basically raising my little sister.
So at this point I was fed up.
I texted her saying that she needs to stop acting like the victim because she abandoned us. I told her I knew it was for a better job but it's been a month and nothing's gotten better. I told her that it sucks that I can never go do anything because I have to be Jessika's mom most of the time and that I was hurt she'd rather hang out with Darcy and her psychotic neighbor and talk to that Chris man more than her own kids. I told her that she's not even making an effort, but I just want her to be happy. But, I also told her to stop telling us she missed us, because it was a lie, if it were true, she'd do something about it and she was hurting me.
So she called.
I didn't pick up cuz I was dealing with a customer.
It was like every other word was fucking and that I need to fucking treat her like my mom and fucking support her and blah blah blah.
Basically, I broke down.
How can she be so oblivious to the pain she's causing?
She may be in pain but she certainly isn't trying to resolve things.
My heart hurts and she doesn't even care.
I was a mess.
I just don't understand how I'm supposed to treat her like my mom when she doesn't act like it.
So - Max came over. He talked to me and just let me cry there. I needed it. Like I said, he's always there for me and I adore him [[11 months in 9 days too :)]]
So I guess my mom was crying on Darcy and DARCY'S ass TEXTED me.
She told me that I should "try showing my mom a little love and support for once"
that was bullshit.
I've been behind my mom 100 percent. I've defended her when no one else would.
She's hardly been there for me.
She goes and hides in her room.
Not hides, but just sits there being lazy and secluded.
I don't get it.
My dad always is involved and always wanting to be in our lives.
He can't because of the restaurant... but every spare moment he's trying to be a good dad.
My mom made a comment about not being better than my dad because he works late.
Well - even so.... he still makes an effort and I am so lucky to have him as my dad.
I'm so tired of this... it hurts too much
Max is the best thing to ever happen to me I think.
He's been there for me whenever I've needed him and he always makes me feel better no matter what the situation.
This whole thing with my mom is killing me. How can she pretend to miss us if she left us. She's a 1/4 of a mile away and she hardly sees us.
Yesterday - the world blew up.
She texted me asking me to take Jessika to work (the restaurant) with me and I was already assumed I would need to anyways... So I said "Yeah already planned on it" and she got all defensive and said I was being mean.
Okay. Right.
I'm sorry but is it my fault that she's practically abandoned us?
I know she started a new job and stuff but I'm basically raising my little sister.
So at this point I was fed up.
I texted her saying that she needs to stop acting like the victim because she abandoned us. I told her I knew it was for a better job but it's been a month and nothing's gotten better. I told her that it sucks that I can never go do anything because I have to be Jessika's mom most of the time and that I was hurt she'd rather hang out with Darcy and her psychotic neighbor and talk to that Chris man more than her own kids. I told her that she's not even making an effort, but I just want her to be happy. But, I also told her to stop telling us she missed us, because it was a lie, if it were true, she'd do something about it and she was hurting me.
So she called.
I didn't pick up cuz I was dealing with a customer.
It was like every other word was fucking and that I need to fucking treat her like my mom and fucking support her and blah blah blah.
Basically, I broke down.
How can she be so oblivious to the pain she's causing?
She may be in pain but she certainly isn't trying to resolve things.
My heart hurts and she doesn't even care.
I was a mess.
I just don't understand how I'm supposed to treat her like my mom when she doesn't act like it.
So - Max came over. He talked to me and just let me cry there. I needed it. Like I said, he's always there for me and I adore him [[11 months in 9 days too :)]]
So I guess my mom was crying on Darcy and DARCY'S ass TEXTED me.
She told me that I should "try showing my mom a little love and support for once"
that was bullshit.
I've been behind my mom 100 percent. I've defended her when no one else would.
She's hardly been there for me.
She goes and hides in her room.
Not hides, but just sits there being lazy and secluded.
I don't get it.
My dad always is involved and always wanting to be in our lives.
He can't because of the restaurant... but every spare moment he's trying to be a good dad.
My mom made a comment about not being better than my dad because he works late.
Well - even so.... he still makes an effort and I am so lucky to have him as my dad.
I'm so tired of this... it hurts too much