it was too much at once
now i have spiraled backwards
it is like drowning 
only inside of my mind
i try and try to resurface 
but i keep sinking under
this struggle on its own is terribly depressing

i don't know what to do.

i miss my friends.

The palm of your hand

I am hard to deal with. I have violent mood swings, shading from black to white in seconds. I get lost inside my head following the insecurities that I come up with. I mask my problems with thick anger and harsh words. Maybe there is no real reason of how I ended up this way. Maybe I am just angry. Or maybe it is ( Read more... )

I am done wasting my time. 
i don't need this shit.

seriously what the fuck 
this is just mean 
it is cruel
inhuman
awful
selfish 

 i hate this ( Read more... )

I don 't know what to do anymore ( Read more... )

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 FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

 
accepted to 3 colleges 
offered money by one
3 more to go. 

 
I am someone that beleives in honesty. Ever heard the expression "the truth will set you free"? thats me. the trouble is is that people run and hide and smash the truth away from them because a lot of the time it fucking hurts. It hurts so much it is just easier to push it away, blame other people and run as fast as you can away from it. I try not ( Read more... )