Well recently I have gotten something to smile about. I am really appreciative of it. Tho, it's not quite as fulfilling as I want and need... but perhaps I shall prove my worth, and receive that which I desperately want... Today... these lyrics really describe it... "There will be smiles and frowns, ups and downs..." Perhaps this weekend will go as planned, I REALLY hope so. I am kinda staking alot on it.