new lj! octapus_garden

happiness is over rated. you look forward to something all week and then eep, you've lost it and now u feel like doing nothing but deciding whether or not people want you around. i hate life...

soccer game today. i didnt play. dont know why i waste my time. all the parents laugh at me and it sucks. god i hate it. on a happier note, actually there is no happier note except im an uncle now and my neice is the cutest little thing ever. thats all.

tonight i hung with tiss at the spot and we had the tribute!! it was soooooooooo gooood we left a big tip. haha the bill was like 30 bucks but i get like 30% discount cuz i know the owner so if anyone wants 30% off hoooka at the spot you know who to talk to. aiight i gotta go im dizzy out my mind.

tonight was bomb. new years rocked. i felt like i belonged at vinnie's party everyone was so accepting and i realize that i do have friends, and that the friend list i made was so gay. i really think that milken needs to die. im so accepted everywhere i go outside of milken and i know why. its cuz everyone is so judgmental and im ni that crowd ( Read more... )

ok listening to sell you beautiful by rxbandits makes me want to go and shove my finger down my throate so that im thin. god i hate the buren society is putting on me. i mean i want to be thin so bad and i've tried everything but this shit dont work. ugh i hate it.

well tonight is another night alone. my thoughts are all consumed by pain. i cant even eat. everything i think about hurts. is it possible to stop thinking. now i remember why i started smoking so i would have something to do. but now that i am healthy i have nothing to do. my days consist of naps and solitaire with a little tv. someone ( Read more... )

hey guys. after a festive holidays i have discovered that i officially hate the holidays. all i got was underwear and cologne. who the fuck needs that. how bout some money? i mean im poor i have no money to spend i spent it all on ur gifts fuckers so seriously how come you cant get me something good besides underwear. well its also official ( Read more... )

i just flushed the cigs down the toilet. no more.

well today was kind of depressing/not so i guess my life is starting to improve. i think that my life might go round and round in circles. i feel like im depressed for like 3 months, then happy for 9, then depressed again. thats what it seems like lately. the one thing i look forward to during the day is when i smoke and that is just killing me ( Read more... )