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indefinite livejournal hiatus
I guess this kinda goes without saying, but I'm taking an indefinite hiatus from this site. Partially because it's irrelavent, partially because the app sucks, partially because my eyes also suck and writing is just more difficult than ever before. Just wanted to let everybody (if there's even anybody here) know that I'm doing fine.
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i tried to kill someone once | 30 November 2017
this is how it happens
it's the last day the temperature will be
above thirty-two degrees Fahrenheit
until February
you're not looking at the date
it's just the end of November
the middle of the night in the middle of a road
at the end of November
the hum of this small town hurts your ears
you're stuck in a dream where everything you see
turns into a weapon
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a silent collision | 28 November 2017
and suddenly time stops
after weeks and weeks of moving too fast
the stillness makes my head spin
or maybe you make my head spin
because there you are
a friend of a friend
standing in the living room
had it been my living room
i'd have asked you to leave
our history was crashing around
inside of my skull
a ricocheting bullet i didn't know how to stop
as it ( Read more... ) -
here's why life doesn't fucking matter
Imagine a time in your life when you knew things would end and you didn't want it to. think about the way it made you feel. everything is perfect for the time being, even though you know one day, you'll have to give it all up to move forward. maybe you felt it with a person. maybe you knew you couldn't keep the person around. all you want, forever ( Read more... ) -
A nother M illion T imes | brainspill
I want smoke to fill my lungs ( Read more... ) -
AfterMaTh (initials) -- drafted texts i never sent
I apologized to you for jumping to conclusions and i apologized to your mother for being hysterical and i apologized for the pills. I apologized, then I walked away and when you didn't follow me, i assumed we were done. I apologized ( Read more... ) -
dying in italics
in my dreams, my casket is open. there's a gaping hole in my head. the wet, squishy tunnel through my brain leaks blood. my eyes are wide open and a stranger is reading my eulogy. then you're in my iine of sight. you're cradling the side of my head, fingers ghosting over the edge of the exit wound. i bet your fingertips are sticky. you're saying ( Read more... ) -
when i was shutting my eyes (brainspill)
the bags under my eyes aren't coming with me when i leave ( Read more... ) -
photopost: mostly cats
HEY, MEET MY FUCKING CATS, YO. I SERIOUSLY HAVEN'T POSTED ANY PICTURES OF THEM ON HERE YET AND I'M FLOORED. ALL I DO IS TAKE PICTURES OF THEM. THAT'S ACTUALLY LITERALLY ALL I DO, ASK ANYBODY. I'M AN OBSESSED CAT MOM AND IF I STARE AT THEM FOR TOO LONG I TEAR UP AND CRY BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPY ( Read more... ) -
eating dirt
I had a dream that the world was ending. Messenger boys called Ticket Senders went door to door and delivered government issued cards containing apologies and instructions on how to build a fallout shelter. The sky was bone white all day, and when night fell, I convinced my whole family to take a walk with me under the light of a lunar eclipse. I ( Read more... )