we will not regret the past, nor will we wish to shut the door on it.
what i admire most about the L dog is that she can be so spazzy and excited and drop into a snuggly nap almost instantly. i need to learn this skill immediately.
i've continued to feel odd about working as a counselor in high school. it's clear that i'm still harboring much resentment, shame, and hurt from the 7th through 10th grade years and it's clouding my ability to be useful and effective. if i'm not over it, how can i help them through it? however, due to repeated divine intervention (mostly via facebook) i'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. a wave of people that i thought i would rather not see or talk to ever again have contacted me recently. thanks to all the wisdom of special church, instead of resisting the process, i've been trying to approach each person/situation with willingness, openmindedness, honesty, and forgiveness. much to my pleasant surprise, i'm achieving closure at a shocking rate. i feel lighter, increasingly more free from the bondage of the past and more able to live more fully in the present. maybe i'll even be able to someday stop judging people/myself so much and having so many toxic negative thoughts. b/c lord only knows those thoughts make me feel like i ate 15 mcdonald's cheeseburgers, a bag of cool ranch doritos, and cotton candy in rapid succession. gross.
anyway, i'm not quite there yet but i can feel it as a definite, realistic, achievable possibility. it's freakin fantastic.
also i love khenry's new love me or leave me pandora playlist. i can't imagine listening to anything else.
i've continued to feel odd about working as a counselor in high school. it's clear that i'm still harboring much resentment, shame, and hurt from the 7th through 10th grade years and it's clouding my ability to be useful and effective. if i'm not over it, how can i help them through it? however, due to repeated divine intervention (mostly via facebook) i'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. a wave of people that i thought i would rather not see or talk to ever again have contacted me recently. thanks to all the wisdom of special church, instead of resisting the process, i've been trying to approach each person/situation with willingness, openmindedness, honesty, and forgiveness. much to my pleasant surprise, i'm achieving closure at a shocking rate. i feel lighter, increasingly more free from the bondage of the past and more able to live more fully in the present. maybe i'll even be able to someday stop judging people/myself so much and having so many toxic negative thoughts. b/c lord only knows those thoughts make me feel like i ate 15 mcdonald's cheeseburgers, a bag of cool ranch doritos, and cotton candy in rapid succession. gross.
anyway, i'm not quite there yet but i can feel it as a definite, realistic, achievable possibility. it's freakin fantastic.
also i love khenry's new love me or leave me pandora playlist. i can't imagine listening to anything else.