Being in colorado is hard for some reason I get tired and weak really easy. I hate this immune system shit. It sucks. I hope it doesn't get worse. That would really be bad. I miss everyone. Please "blow a kiss" and tell me whats new with you. the entertainment oer here is sssssslllllloooooowowwwwwwwwww like WOW. Love you guys, later

All of my best wishes go out to you Holli. Everything will turn out okay. Just keep trying to be positive. I KNOW it's hard but you have to try. I'm sending bubbles of love to you girlie.

I have decided that I need to start being happy again. I'm trying to repair what I have been feeling and being for so long. I want to be me agai and not be so depressed all the time. I have to be happy for the people I love. I'm sorry everyone, there has just been a lot going on. I'm on my way back. I miss it.

So I woke up at 5:30 on sunday morning and got on a plane. The night before Matt and I had an argument so I slept for a total of like 2 hours if that. Then when I got here I had a whole shit load of stuff to do and Matt STILL hasn't called. Nobody has. :( It makes me sad. I miss everyone. I miss Matt. Friday night when we had tha argument it ( Read more... )

So Matt knows it's my last day and I told him to call last night. He didn't. It's almost 8:00 today now, and still no call. Nobody is answering. He just doesn't care. He doesn't care about me, think about me, or anything. Everytime he does this shit I forgive him because I care so much for him. But I am wasting my time giving everything I am ( Read more... )

So I leave tomorrow morning at like 5:30 to go to colorado. I hope my grandparents will let me use their computer so I can still write to everyone in my live journal! I have to be gone for 32 days. It's going to suck. Matt didnt call last night AGAIN. One time it was like 2 days and that makes me sad. :( I saw him last night but there were a ( Read more... )

Today I was feeling really depressed about the whole thing with Matt, as you all know and are getting SO sick of, I'm sorry but so much shit goes on with us it's not even funny and there is nobody that wants to listen, but I can understand so I'm sorry. So I was feeling really down and everything and so my mom took me up to superstition springs ( Read more... )

I LOVE MATT!!!!!!

So this week has been an interesting one. My sister came over on friday and stayed until monday afternoon. Matt came over and visited me on saturday and sunday night. we had a good time. He was sick though, and now I'm REALLY sick. lol. I have a feeling I am going to become very sick. I don't want to tell my parents becuase they already have ( Read more... )

~Matt, I need to tell you this in here. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I feel like I have known you for years and we were almost meant to cross each others' paths. I want to be with you all the time. You are like food to me. I need it. I need more of you everytime I can't have you. The feeling I get with you is so great ( Read more... )