As you lay in this trough of your usually bountiful valley of life,
Don’t you dare turn over.
Once you go belly up towards those that wish to bury you,
They’ve won.
Grab my hand like you’re reaching for a star named after me;
Plant your two feet beneath you with the utmost conviction.
I’ll help you push upward and rise.
Listen to your heart, it’s been ( Read more... )

The spans of my days are deceiving.
Life should never have to take so damn long to begin.
Keeping time with Camels to blow a few lonely moments away.
Tight stream of feathering smoke dissipates as quickly as I made it appear.
The way you came and went.
I keep them burning till the taste of tobacco on my lips makes me forget your kiss.
I don’t want to ( Read more... )

Duration of a ninety-nine,

Is long as it takes for me to decide,

That I would ignore every dream aching to be real,

To be with you.

Don’t wanna flip backwards through these pages;

The anger in my own words would change my mind.

Last night you were the belligerent drunk.

Bringing up things that didn’t matter a lick to us.

Dwelling on people you don’t even ( Read more... )

You been trying to get the jagged little pieces of your life to fit together.
When I walked into that room, I saw what I wanted to never.

Her clothes, her shoes, MAC and a dresser.

I tell you she’s another damn gnat of a spirit,

Of that I’m the better guesser.

There's no way I'll let parts of her stay,

She’s saturating and poisoning what  I’m struggling ( Read more... )

My hair didn’t wanna wake up this morning.
Flat and falling, making me embarrassed to look at my reflection.
Didn’t want to wash it and re-coif; too lazy.

I put on an old t-shirt, went through the motions of taking it off, and stopped when the neckline traced my forehead.

Tied a knot with the sleeves back behind my skull.

Tucked the excess (inside out ( Read more... )

 
Sick and snotty

And you still wanted me swinging by

Refused because I knew what you were like

Heard it from all the other girls you wanted swingin by

Small and empty

And I knew I shoulda been swingin by

Refused because I knew what I was like

Heard it from all the boys I had swingin by

Sick and snotty

And I got my past drippin down the back of my throat

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White is my mind’s transparent complexion;

Thinning and thinning above boiling water.

The steam’s feathering shadow points a cottony finger toward the silhouette of my fist and skull.

I want so badly for that floating vapor to be the smoke of incense,

So I can decipher the secrets of its sweet-smelling, swirling design.

Always a message my mind searches ( Read more... )

Same downpour will come down on both ( Read more... )

With every shallow breath I feel a convulsion coming on.

No longer can I endure these redundant gestures of dying.

Clutch and brace myself for the ache of crying.

Eyelids fluttering,

I’m fading fast with each hummingbird blink.

Been switched on and off so many times,

Filament finally busted.

Beyond repair, no more light comes from me.

Oh, and here it goes ( Read more... )

I greet you with my brave face as you open the door and let me walk in first ( Read more... )