happy birthday to me!

Spell your first name backwards - nosylla ( Read more... )

My skin is sore and my head is splitting threating to spill my thoughts out all over these already bloodstainted streets- tainted by others who fell before me. Threatening to pull me and push me underwater. Figuring I should go now because I should have already gone sooner. I bleed like a masochist. Stars are cut from angel flesh- when it was all ( Read more... )

i write the last word of my last essay of the yhear and i feel like i have lost by ability to breathe.

summer is upon me and the air is stifling. i want to be alone, yet i know i need you more than ever before. my life is a castle of cards, one gust of hot air and i will topple over into a crumpled heap of cheap paper.

i miss you.

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its almost time for a new tattoo. i can almost feel my skin crying out "color me! make me alive!" ideas: something basquiet related, because he is my absolute favorite ever ever ever. i'm also considering getting the chanel symbol on my left wrist. preditable? i know but its simple and perfect ( Read more... )

The cheap wine hits me fast and the next thing I know I'm outside smoking cigarettes (even though I've sworn I've quit) and stumbling down Commonwealth Ave looking for a newspaper. But it feels good, the alcohol brightens my insides and dulls my thoughts. We go to Newbury St. today looking for birthday presents, and I'm scared; each turn could ( Read more... )

Today I am a blank piece of paper. Wordless and empty.

I think I'm gettin sick.

for once in my life, it's not raining in boston. i can't wait until it gets warm. weekends at the beach. these are not the dirty, rocky beaches of jersey (the beaches i know as a kid), but the shiny silt and white sand of massachusetts. i remember lying with you, on top of that sand last summer. i remember feeling like the world would never end ( Read more... )

this is my first delve into the world of livejournal. after much harrassment, my friends finally convinced me to start one up. so this is new but i'm just going to start so fuck. yeah. tonight is another dismal, digusting, rainy AWFUL day in boston. i'm not sure what i'm doing yet tonight, but the prognosis for charlie's always looks good, so uh ( Read more... )