the words "i hurt" just loose their meaning once they pass my lips and slip into your ears.
this isn't about a lover, it is about those i am parting with.

this really hurts, breaking up never rocks, but goodbyes are never the "see you laters" i have come to love so fondly.

( i felt this for him once.. this level of intensity. )

i am just a flower
hold me right
and you could
embrace my scent
hold me right
and i could
become brittle
and fall apart

or let go

uncle, release this hold
on me you have
these fingerprints will fade
eventually it will not be
a painful presence you have
but a memory of something we had

cried tonight.
when she said
"maybe my mom will give you a gift card so you
can buy a futin matress in cali"
i held my tears
and the heat inside
breathed a new breath
lungs filled with reality

x

"dont hold on,
go get strong"

x

i didn't think this would hurt as much.

i haven't started packing up yet. i just got a reality from the parents. although i'm taking minial things to cali, i've got to pack up all my belongings. ouch, i thought i was just going on a trip, i'll be back soon ( Read more... )

this weekend of parties has put into a saddening awe. i am going to miss so many people. and yet, i feel this heat inside of me, just waiting to be released. i've got to set myself free before i can be of aide to others ( Read more... )

ok..
http://www.geocities.com/art_of_cmg

it's a lil shaky.
i'll be revising the images
(i.e. cropping&editing out)

but other than that,
comments?

i'm really proud of teaching myself html... so at least happily hand out minor praise, thanks.

no really, i don't wanna feel anything.
i don't think you're kool.
i think you're silly in ways
that make me ill.
/go away/
or stay,
i'm leaving soon, thank god.
x
i really don't dig them.
x

you ain't as purty as you seemed.

my parents have arranged a trip to chicago
from thurs through sunday this week
i think they rock
for being like,
have a fun party,
be safe and keep
the house in one piece

saturday night:
9-10pm ish The Grey Lights
are performing
bon fire action after that
and before
food
beer/byob

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