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I kind of hate the fact that I'm posting this now, when all these horrible things are happening and I'm more or less fine, but it's my journal. I'll write whatever the hell I want in it.
So a lot of those anonymous comments in Andromeda's journal thing were telling me I need to stop being such a wimp. And that's not even counting the guy (girl?) who apologized, and I'm not sure why. I mean, I could understand having to live up to the whole being-in-Gryffindor thing, but I'm more or less happy the way I am.
Right?
All right, I'll say it: I'm afraid of change. I worry what would happen if the Marauders weren't there to protect me. I'm pretty sure I annoy them, I annoy myself sometimes, and I know no one else really likes me. Would people like me more if I was more outgoing? Or would I just be more annoying?
And now all of a sudden I'm worrying what will happen after we graduate. Will they just drop me? Will I just have to find a new group to follow around? Maybe I'd better just accept that I'll always be alone.
Shutting up, I'm annoying myself again.
So a lot of those anonymous comments in Andromeda's journal thing were telling me I need to stop being such a wimp. And that's not even counting the guy (girl?) who apologized, and I'm not sure why. I mean, I could understand having to live up to the whole being-in-Gryffindor thing, but I'm more or less happy the way I am.
Right?
All right, I'll say it: I'm afraid of change. I worry what would happen if the Marauders weren't there to protect me. I'm pretty sure I annoy them, I annoy myself sometimes, and I know no one else really likes me. Would people like me more if I was more outgoing? Or would I just be more annoying?
And now all of a sudden I'm worrying what will happen after we graduate. Will they just drop me? Will I just have to find a new group to follow around? Maybe I'd better just accept that I'll always be alone.
Shutting up, I'm annoying myself again.