it is tough. I made some big changes and they have yet to result in bg things. I guess my only option is to wait. It hurts though to want something so bad and not to be able to get it. But i won't give up because that for sure won't help. I'll try until it works. Maybe the changes i made weren't big enough. maybe i need to be more deticated. i mean ( Read more... )

I have a new official hobby: baking. It is pretty fun. Also the final product can be very satisfying. So, now every Sunday I bake something new. I made a coffee cake and humenstachens yesterday. Proud of myself for that. I keep on feelinglike shopping by i have spent enough money in the last 4 weeks. No more. Although i have a feeling i wouldn't be ( Read more... )

Am i where i want to be ( Read more... )

i really need to start studying for my exams, my first one is tomorrow. I really should actually start working. But first i'll eat something small. I have my first exam tomorrow. I should make sure i know where it is and at what time. It is english so it should not be that bad. I do not think i will be sleeping for the next five nights. I have an ( Read more... )

fuck i just spilled my heart out in an entire and it deleted. Fuck that, i'm not typing it all out again. That really sucked, alot. i could just get to the point. yesterday i went to portfolio day to see peoples reaction to my art. the guy i spoke to from ocad told me i'm wasting my time in the current program i'm in and that I am too large ( Read more... )

I had a really unigue thing to write on a message but i completely left me. I'm sure it wasn't that great afterall. I have finally got my new computer (G4 iBook). He is so pretty sn close to my heart that i named him. He is to be called Jacque-Piere. I hope i spelled that correctly. He is a Frenchman who moved from the US to join me. I love him. ( Read more... )

nervous and stressed
don't want to lift a finger
miss seeing some people
feel like gaps are growing
want to cheer up
it will pass
think that my interview went well

I have so fucked myself over. I have left all my homework til the last day of vacation and i keep on trying to convince myself that i'll be able to finish it all. But i know i won't be able to. And i still have 2 hours of work to do for mi job. Ahhhh... I'm going to fail high school, not get accepted to any university (or college)... end up working ( Read more... )

I'm in B.C.. And so far so good. I'm visiting my sister. This is my very first trip alone. Yay for me. My head is hurting now but I can ignore that. I'll just drink tea and pretend that I don't have a headache. I think I have a tumor in my head. I get headaches a lot. My sis is out at the moment. She want a shopping and I didn't feel like going so ( Read more... )

MY NEW COMPUTER IS GOING CRAZY!