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he told me that no other guy, no other person, not even my dad would equal the love he feels for me.
he told me that I am his life. for without me, he would just be existing and not living.
he thanked me for everything i have done for him, and above all, for the love I am giving him. i need not tell him anymore daw that I love him, and I'll be the only girl who will love him this much. he knows.
he told me na hindi na raw ako iba sa kanya. its as if we are two peas in a pod. parang twins, pero ayaw niya rin naman daw na magkapatid kami kasi that would mean that the intimacy will be gone.
he told me that i am the most important person in his life.
and grabe, he said sorry for not showing up sa speech ko the other week in our high school. there is no excuse daw for not going there. nagi-guilty daw siya. he feels stupid daw (kasi siguro he could have really gone there pero he chose to play pc). but of course i told him that he shouldnt feel that way.
duon pa lang, i got teary eyed na. he hit a spot kasi. aside from the ateneo thing, not being with me in that once in a lifetime speech ranks second most disappointing. but i cried (tears of joy) when he told me this
i love you. hindi kita nilalambing pero sinasabi ko sayo 'to. i love you.
i love you beam.
i love you ivorine.
it was the first time in our almost three years together that he used my name in saying i love you instead of baby or hunnie or princess. and it was the most profound (tama ba yung term ko?) i love you ive ever heard. it was the most different although it sounds completely the same from the other i love you's i heard before. pero this time, grabe. grabe na lang ang masasabi ko. naiinis kami kasi hindi kami magkasama ngayon. he could have been crying with me na raw sana if ever. and hugging me real tight. just like what hapenned in our senior retreat where we were just hugging each other for the rest of that particular activity, crying and just telling how much we love each other. shucks, cheesy. sobra.
patawarin niyo na kami. nakakatuwa nga kasi both of us didnt realize na monthsary pala namin ngayon! 2 years and 8 months! yahay! : ) ang saya.
i want to write more pa sana about how sarap this feeling is pero hindi ko na talaga kaya yung antok ko. hehe. 3 hours of community service for nstp and watching three whole games in the ncaa would surely make your body sore pero dahil nagulat ako na tumawag si jr tapos hindi ko naman kayang ibaba kasi sobrang once in a blue moon lang siya maging ganito ka-vocal about his feelings e syempre hindi ko na tatapusin kaagad. at wala talaga akong balak tapusin, ever.
thank you Lord for putting jr in my life. i love him so much more.