Personal victory

[i_see_leaves]

So, on Friday i did something i consider very brave. I had been thinking for some time that i couldn't take listening to my flat mates boy troubles as long as they didn't know i'm gay. It's easier to listen to their teen-like woes when they know i don't actually care if some guy likes me. Ok, so on Fri evening i had come home with one of my flat mates when i thought this has to be the time, i have to tell her. I wasn't sure what to expect, cuz after all i've only known these people for a couple of weeks. They could decide to throw me out if they were gay panicky enough. I was shaking and totally pale and eventually managed to croak out that there was something i wanted to say but i didn't know if i could, because i knew once i'd said THAT, i'd have to continue. Hannah immediately said "Sure you can", which encouraged me, since only an open person would say something like that. In the end i managed to say that i "prefer girls" (sounds better than "i'm gay" when you don't know how ppl are gonna react), and she was just like "Oh, ok. But that's not a big deal!" I still couldn't believe her reaction so i said over and over that i hoped it wouldn't be awkward for her now. (i mean, after all, three girls living together, we're often going around in our night tees or half-dressed while getting ready to go somewhere, and when they know i like girls... well, yeah.) Hannah was really sweet, saying that of course it wouldn't be awkward and that she understood that i wouldn't jump every girl just cuz i like girls.

So that went well.

Then Morgan came home, and lo and behold, it went just as well to tell her! It was so great to have Hannah there as support, since i knew she was fine with it, so even if Morgan had freaked out then someone would have been "on my side".

It's been so great since i told them, i'm so relieved i don't have to be Undercover Gay in my apartment:D And it's cool to be able to say "ohmigod that girl was HAWT!" and have someone to talk about girls with.