the memories and days
It's been a sad day ever since I woke up. I'm remembering the Conserve memories, the good and the bad, and today I miss my Conserve friends more than ever.
Dette and her random fits of happiness, over sweedish fish and the hott boys on the internet. The convo about getting a dildo in the mail. The horror stories about adam.Gone forever.
Pauline and Mandi, the teas and bitching sessions. Pauline shooting people with her invisible gun. Making the poster. All the talk of Dawson. Gone forever.
Frances and her reading books. The bathroom conversations about underwear. The story we wrote about mara. Ritz chips and candy. Making mother's day cards. Gone forever.
Cam and Star Wars (which I still haven't seen). The seductive dancing lessons. Always watching a movie. Dying our hair. Gone forever.
Mallorie and the talks about Nick. the conversations about adam. the days of borrowing her dresses and everyone trying and switching dresses about 50 times. Dying her hair. Gone forever.
Ivonne always on the phone. Always angry about something. Always trying to decide which guy she really liked, the cleaning when she was hysterical. Gone forever.
Kati and our runs in the woods. Doing homework together. Hanging out and talking and not doing the homework we were supposed to be doing. Convincing Jeff Patnode we were working. Walks with Kenny. Gone forever.
Mara feeding me choclate. Mara and i staying up all night to meet adrian and ryan outside at 6 a.m. Being the motherly figure. Making me take care of myself and sleep. Always being there. Saying dump the FB.
Lynn giving aways clothes. Running around being crazy. Dancing on tables. Her Hickey (haha) Lynn and Ryan. Gone.
Adrian always trying to make me smile and be happy. Making me laugh. Hugging me. Him and Mara and how sweet he is to her. Airhumping. Sitting and talking in the hallways and coatrooms. Gone forever.
Bill obsessed with Wesley Willis. Trying to get him to admit he likes Pauline. Hanging out and discussing strange things. Reading his xanga. Gone forever.
Cassie K and sitting around talking towards the end. The help she gave me. The talk she made me have. Eating meals. Just being around. Gone forever.
All these memories and others came back this morning. I miss Conserve today, just today. And I'm afraid to start over again. I left Conserve to get rid of everything that was killing me slowly, but maybe I'm just running away... I don't know.
Dette and her random fits of happiness, over sweedish fish and the hott boys on the internet. The convo about getting a dildo in the mail. The horror stories about adam.Gone forever.
Pauline and Mandi, the teas and bitching sessions. Pauline shooting people with her invisible gun. Making the poster. All the talk of Dawson. Gone forever.
Frances and her reading books. The bathroom conversations about underwear. The story we wrote about mara. Ritz chips and candy. Making mother's day cards. Gone forever.
Cam and Star Wars (which I still haven't seen). The seductive dancing lessons. Always watching a movie. Dying our hair. Gone forever.
Mallorie and the talks about Nick. the conversations about adam. the days of borrowing her dresses and everyone trying and switching dresses about 50 times. Dying her hair. Gone forever.
Ivonne always on the phone. Always angry about something. Always trying to decide which guy she really liked, the cleaning when she was hysterical. Gone forever.
Kati and our runs in the woods. Doing homework together. Hanging out and talking and not doing the homework we were supposed to be doing. Convincing Jeff Patnode we were working. Walks with Kenny. Gone forever.
Mara feeding me choclate. Mara and i staying up all night to meet adrian and ryan outside at 6 a.m. Being the motherly figure. Making me take care of myself and sleep. Always being there. Saying dump the FB.
Lynn giving aways clothes. Running around being crazy. Dancing on tables. Her Hickey (haha) Lynn and Ryan. Gone.
Adrian always trying to make me smile and be happy. Making me laugh. Hugging me. Him and Mara and how sweet he is to her. Airhumping. Sitting and talking in the hallways and coatrooms. Gone forever.
Bill obsessed with Wesley Willis. Trying to get him to admit he likes Pauline. Hanging out and discussing strange things. Reading his xanga. Gone forever.
Cassie K and sitting around talking towards the end. The help she gave me. The talk she made me have. Eating meals. Just being around. Gone forever.
All these memories and others came back this morning. I miss Conserve today, just today. And I'm afraid to start over again. I left Conserve to get rid of everything that was killing me slowly, but maybe I'm just running away... I don't know.