the bitter end

[i_speak_tongue]

Hey. It's been a while.

I flew the LJ nest over to tumblr long  ago, but in case you remember me and are still here, or stumble onto my  fic and are curious about what I thought, I figured I  might as well tell you what I thought of the finale.

Where to begin.

Comments

[andromakhe001]

Wish you'd never had to write that post. It's all true. Do they think they were being edgy? It's been a long time since something like this was edgy, these showrunners and writers spitting in the face of most of their audience(there are always some sycophants who'll lap up anything uncritically) has become so common these days it would be almost boring if it didn't hurt so much.

[i_speak_tongue]

Thank you. Yeah, it was wildly unimaginative. I'm sure they thought they were trying to score points for being edgy. We seriously need more women show runners out there who don't have this mentality that dark endings are challenging or subversive. If anything, it's the opposite. Give me a hopeful ending. Killing off your characters is easy. Having them find a way to live in the world and be happy is the real challenge.

[enteselene]

What can I say? You just put in words my own feelings about that horrific end (which I'm struggling to stomach, still). I'm grieving, I'm in shock and I am so fuking pissed with the writer... not with our boys and not with Jensen or Jared. Jensen's performance made me sob, like a baby, and I'm fifty, for crying out loud! He was amazing and deserves all our love.
I wish I could erase 15x20 of my mind and be able to end Supernatural at 15x19. Maybe, with a lot of time, I might.
Thank you for sharing your thougts with us, right now I need to feel I'm not alone.

[i_speak_tongue]

Thanks for reading my rant! Yes, I too sobbed during the finale. Jensen's acting was so good, but for me it was also just the beginning of three days worth of feeling like my chest was full of bricks and my brain stuffed with wool. I cried a number of times, I was so upset about what they did to him. Thankfully, I feel okay now, physically, but I'm still sad, and very angry with the writers. You are definitely not alone. We are not alone. If you are interested, I've been reblogging posts from a number of other Deangirls who share our grief, here. (that will take you to the posts starting on the night the finale aired, and you go back from there to today). There's also a fundraiser a fan started for people upset about how Dean was treated in the finale, and there are many comments from people, to whom Dean clearly meant a great deal. Reading those definitely made me feel less alone! (fair warning, the person who started the page is a destiel shipper, but many of the comments are from fans who are not)

[si_star_x]

I stopped watching around Season 10 for no real reason, but I will finish it eventually. Sometimes I get addicted to something and I'm so heavily involved for a such a long time that I fizzle out and it seems like one day I just...forget. Obviously I've never forgotten about Supernatural - how could I? - and I'll never forget about our glory days of writing hurt/comfort fanfiction. Perhaps that'll soothe the pain at least, knowing we can repeatedly rewrite the ending for as long as we'd like. I hope you're well because you've always been awesome. We will stand united no matter what.

[i_speak_tongue]

HI star! Thank you so much! So good to hear from you. You're awesome too! I hope you are doing well! I really have not been involved in fandom or writing much for the past 4 or 5 seasons either, but I have still been watching and (apparently!) still pretty attached to the show, even if i had not been loving the writing lately. We did have a good thing going for a while there, didn't we? I'm all about rewriting the ending now, if not on paper, then at least in my head! If you do reach season 15, may I recommend stopping one episode short of the finale? Haha.

[mad_server]

(how many of us needed to believe that about ourselves, but found in Dean a surrogate for that self-love we were not quite ready to gift ourselves with?)

PREACHHHHHH