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i_think_of_u

the entry you deserve..

Jun 02, 2005 15:21

im actually surprised to be writing this. i just got home from having possibly the worst day of my life so far. i hate crying in school. its so humiliating.

i found out this morning that all my friends hate me. or are mad at me. i dont even know which it is. the worst part of this is i dont even know why either.

the way i see it... i broke up with ( Read more... )

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brother_tolbert June 1 2005, 21:53:44 UTC

things get better. they always do. go check out the sisterhood of the traveling pants (I can't beleive i just said that). it will provide some perspective on things, especailly the ending. (I cried a bit, and I am man enough to admit it.)

i_think_of_u June 1 2005, 22:58:27 UTC

james. i love you. i miss you so much. thanks for everything. your so great.

britknee310 June 1 2005, 23:41:13 UTC

I totally second that recommendation.

anonymous June 1 2005, 22:01:14 UTC

Aright laur- I wasn't gonna voice my opinion on this one but im gonna get it out to you and get it over with. Listen up cuz i've got alot to say ( ... )

i_think_of_u June 1 2005, 23:04:40 UTC

i turned to journalims ppl because i felt neglected. you may not understand but thats okay. i dont think you can say that your here for me after saying all that.. but i do understand what your saying. it all makes sense. what gets to me is that you all assumed i was fine. and that you all went running to austin. the only reason most of you became friends with him was because he was my boyfriend.. i mean i was friends with most of you first. thats all. i just feel like everyone has chosen him over me. but i really dont think you have any right to say that i had no right to break up with him. you should be able to respect my choices. maybe your mad that ive moved on this fast - but thats how i am. everything you said is true.. well most of it. but as my friends i dont feel like you guys should be mad at me for making this kind of decision. but thats my own opinion. i needed to be me -- not austin girlfriend. and joe and my relationship is so different from the one i had with austin. his main concern is making sure i work things out with ( ... )

anonymous June 2 2005, 00:10:31 UTC

i clearly did not say anywhere that you had no right to break up with austin-- i said i understand the choice that you did

nosuchthing1087 June 2 2005, 05:13:05 UTC

haha i was mentioned in someone's anonymous post! and holy crap, there are like a million comments on this entry.

anonymous June 1 2005, 22:05:41 UTC

Its jo-- forgot to sign my comment. Email/call bk when you want

arkane1020 June 1 2005, 22:49:48 UTC

lauren~ i didn't want to mess anything up with you or your friends. i also dont just want to be a stand in "until your friends get back to normal." so if its going to make your friends mad, then we shouldn't be close friends. but thats not what i want. feel better though and call if you need anything <3

i_think_of_u June 1 2005, 23:05:29 UTC

please dont leave mee. i love you. you are my friend.. and if other ppl dont like you then its to bad for them. youve stuck by me the last few weeks and im not lettting you go.

wow arkane1020 June 2 2005, 02:54:16 UTC

Her friends are normal is lauren that needs to get back to normal
Brandon

before you read this..remember that ur my best friend and i love u this_i_promise June 1 2005, 22:52:00 UTC

okay u dont know how scared i am to say what im about to because i know what could happen....first off i think jo did a really good job explaining how i know alot of our friends our feeling. but i cant take sides. ur my best friend and i completley understand why you broke things off with austin..im not sure i fully understand the whole joe situation yet..but im trying. i promise. but i also understand why our friends are acting teh way that they are. dont think that anyone hates. because none of us ever could. but u have to understand that for MONTHS we didnt see you outside of school. sure maybe teh big nights when most of us got together..but other than that u chose to stay with austin. and we in a way understood because we knew how u felt about him. but it was still hard knowing that i had been replaced by a guy. because all of a sudden we stopped seeing each other as much. whenever i would talk to you, austin would come up in every conversation. it frustrated me but i dealt with it because i love you and i knew that he was what ( ... )

Re: before you read this..remember that ur my best friend and i love u i_think_of_u June 1 2005, 23:15:14 UTC

you have always been my best friend. your irreplacable. but today -- it looked like you had to try WAY to hard to even talk to me. and that killed. like as ym best friend you shouldnt have to try so hard. but what really hurt me is that you didnt tell me that everyone was mad. but i already knew that if you werent mad at my you would agree with everyone else. im just not doing this anymore. when i was with austin - no one invited me anywhere. when we broke up - nothing changed. i called but no one ever answered there phones or returned phone calls. so i quit trying. i feel like allison. the same thing happened to her and it hurts so much. ive put in effort to spend time with our friends but they are so busy and i cant sit around at home doing nothing because its just to hard on me. you will always be my best friend. and i will always love you. no matter what. but right now.. i feel abandoned. and i dont know if i want to continue hanging out with this group of friends. i honestly feel as though none of them care about me. i could be ( ... )

Re: before you read this..remember that ur my best friend and i love u this_i_promise June 1 2005, 23:36:10 UTC

you cant expect me to be tehre for you when u havent been there for me and have hurt ME so much. ur not the only one who has had to deal with all this shit. and ur not the only one who can have bad days. i called you every weekend. i tried going to ur house but i couldnt because he was always over. so you cant tell me that i never tried. you made plans with him before you ever gave us a chance to make plans with u. after u broke up i tried hanging out with you. but i couldnt because someone else had already moved in. im sorry im acting like such a bitch but ive been frustrated and confused for a long time and i guess this is just the time for u to know that as much as u feel hurt right now, thats how ive felt for a long time. again you arent the only one who has been abandoned. i felt abandoned for a LONG time. why do you think i pulled away and tried getting closer with elaine and rachel? it was because i never saw u and knew that things would never go back to the way taht they were. and today i didnt have to force myself to talk to ( ... )