well, chris finaly read all of the entries from when he was gone now he is mad at me and i have no where to go to get away from him and i feel like sucha jerk and right now i just want to go be alone, but i can't. i let him sit in the car with soraya and sam with out geting pissed but w/e. i said if things dont work out then i have something to do ( Read more... )

TODAY IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! OMG. well, today statred out just like any other day but i ended wonderfully. i am so so so so so so so so so so sooo happy. well, my mom and dad took me out to dinner and when we were done eating we sat around for a while. well, my mom aand dad tried to wast time because they were waiting for some one but ( Read more... )

well, today still sucks but it's getting alittle better. me and my mom are going to go to the backstreet boys concert.::smile, smile:: it should be really fun. and i might be going to ozfest tomorrow whit steph. but i dont know if i will. i hope it will be fun. me and chris are still kind-a fighting but i really dont think a hug is that big of a ( Read more... )

well, nevermind not being depressed i just CALLED CHRIS AND TOLD HIM ABOUT THAT HUGE (sorry i put the caps on) and he got all pissed. it's a fucking huge. what the hell, them he just texted messaged me and said that "we need to talk later" so i mostlikey wont have a boyfriend tomorrow. why the hell am i so stupid. i fucking hate myself.

well, i am feeling alot better now. i'm not all depressed and shit. i miss chris alot. i can't wait for him to get home even thought it's like ten milloin days away well, it's only 3 but it feels like ten million. i had a weired experince last night, when troy came over. and i am just realizing it all right now. when he went to give me a huge ( Read more... )

well, yesterday day i found out that chris doesn't trust me at all. troy call me just to talk and to ask me about his cd's then i tell chris about it and he gets all well, i have a question to ask you but i dont want to fight so i'll just wait until i get home. but i keep bugging him about it htne he finaly told me and he said that i brol\ke ( Read more... )

well, i am kind of upset but it's for a stupid reason. today i realized that i really don't have any friends any more other then chris and his sisters. i mean chris is laeving for a week and i have nothing to do other then go to dive team. great fun there. not really all i fucking do is smack and hurt myself. i have a bunch of little bruses on my ( Read more... )

well, every ine today my youth group mis going on a surprize feild trip and it really dosen't have that much to do with the hold you have to believe in god stuff but it will make you think but not much about god but more about your self. but its going to be a really fun thing so if you want to go then go to the first baptist church, down the street ( Read more... )

well, i am not going to talk to any guys any more no matter what it's not worth lossing my boggie woggie man. i am so sorry all. i fell bad but i really dont think that i could ever live with out chris. well i dont think i know that i can't live with out him and even if i can i really dont want to. today was the best and worse day ever. it was his ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOGGIE WOGGIE MAN. I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO ( Read more... )