Started school. It doesn't feel like I've only been living here a month. It doesn't feel like I've only been in school what 2 and a half days now. weird. I guess I'm just adaptable. makes sense though my whole life I've waited...for well, the rest of my life. It feels freeing now that shes not on my back all the time. Still it hurts thinking about ( Read more... )

I'm home now. officially. no longer mobile and running. It's nice. I like to sit still some ( Read more... )

things are getting put together. my rooms done being painted so I'm getting most of the things put together. its a headache though everythings a mess. I never want to move again in my life. lol! i'm excited for new things. yesterday I had a run in with my mom and it just made me realize how far I've come and how much better off I am ( Read more... )

scared. and crying but I don't know why. my heart just skipped 10 beats and has become heavy. what's goin to happen to me. I'm sure it'll all be the same. we'll never talk. nobody will care. and every date, every relationship will kill me again with the pain of knowing that it all was nothing in the end. and I hate the song written in the 90s that ( Read more... )

everything comes down to this. feels like I'm standing on the edge. of something SO much bigger than anything I could ever had anticpated. I'm kind of scared, scared to lose everyone. but I guess thats the chance that has to be taken. in order to move forward. I worry too much. instead of letting go I continue to push. continue to try. but I said ( Read more... )

^lol thats like the only half way decent christmas song anymore ( Read more... )

there is a time in everyone's life when we come to except the fact that we are nothing.
but we can overcome our boundries.

these are the days.

I'll miss it all. Everything I leave behind will have left an imprint on a piece of me, and I will miss it all. Everything. Even down to the house that holds the ghosts of the life I hated. And it scares me to no end the things I will have to leave in the hands of others. But I have to let them know. That's it them that would be letting me go. ( Read more... )

long time no write well. hum. where to begin. the guy that I met and I spent about 1 month dating before realizing that things were way too on again off again. put simply.. I need to be with someone that makes the effort like I do. spent time with the fam this weekend. bummed around with b and lynn yesterday, then spent time with noelle,kate and ( Read more... )

I've been really happy lately. even moreso than usual if thats possible. Things have been looking up. Ahhh YAY! I feel like.....my stupid crazy self again. and now I can show myself to someone. The only other one than matthew who really saw my blondness as cute. I'm excited to see where these roads will take me.