This would be funny if I were not so bloody alarmed. I was looking at this fat positive tumblr full of quite NSFW pictures of women, when my dad came in. The doorway of my room is not close to my desk, but I think he's got better eyes than I have. Now I'm not sure if he caught sight of it before I switched screens, because he didn't say anything ( Read more... )

During the past few days, posssibly weeks even, I have lived in the closest approximation to hell and it doesn't show on the outside. I've had these things for a long time, the crazy sounding ticks, but the physical debilitation and low mood are new to me and I'm both disturbed and irritated by them. I want them to go away at any cost ( Read more... )

Stare into a flame.

Try to remember. Until you realize you don’t remember. Not for any good reason either. The memories are not just waiting like pages to be turned or a cave to climb into. None of that bullshit depth has actually gathered in you, like that something all those phonies told you, to wait for, just wait for.

Evening comes, I light my ( Read more... )

“that Shadow-this wandering and tormented thing ‘You will be lost,’ I said-‘utterly lost.’ One gets sometimes such a flash of inspiration, you know. I did say the right thing, though indeed he could not have been more irretrievably lost than he was at this very moment, when the foundations of our intimacy were being laid-to endure-to endure-even to ( Read more... )

I'm scared. :(

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