its nice to have my computer back.. its nice to have some things back. its nice to have torrents..
its just nice for now and i am going to be happy with that!

there was a day between you and me when you told me you would be there for me when some boy stomped my heart and i broke into a million pieces. it seems that boy has turned to boys very rapidly and you'd need a microscope to see any given piece of what is left of me. some things are just so hard to accept, but really sitting here listening to the ( Read more... )

i am so sure that i need more children in my life. i kind of don't want to go to school anymore and have a kid and a job and just be soooooo content raising that best little person ever. i am pretty much given up on my dreams of being Hari Seldon. i know i will never be a main character, and that makes all the effort just not worth it. to get a ( Read more... )

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is it so bad to be over the life i have? i dunno. i am just such an emo kid of late. the craziness brings it out.
someone needs to come haul me away before the men in white coats do..
i sent a message to Fransisco earlier today. no response. this is good because i put myself on the line and made and ass of myself.
i hate these times. i hate the ( Read more... )

in hind-sight, last night was weirder now than i initially realized. i've thought randomly today about three times 'my life is going in a new direction.' that feels so melodramatic for some reason. i suppose that if anything is deserving of these new feelings it is last night ( Read more... )

dear livejournal,
there is a 4-gy going on to my right. i am not participating. i am occasionally facilitating and ensuring that no blood flow is being cut off. i know the safe word and i have a knife.

/sigh...

so this morning i was sitting in my living room
wishing that moments wouldn't end.
there are places i could live forever.
but now i am watching greese aaaaand
i can't remember what i wanted to say,
and i am no longer in the mood.
i concur:
i want this brave new world to end.

...

so ( Read more... )

GRE = done
done = 1230
1230/1600 = 3/4 intelligent
:-(