last night i called erin in a druged up stupor, raving about how i was worring about my little sister and how i wish that the people i couldnt stand werent so much like me, and how i would leave if i had the courage. i talked to her about how i was a faolure as a human being and how i ruined everything for everyone. she tried to reassure me but it ( Read more... )

did you ever wake up one morning and realize that you were just everybodys's consolation prize? *sigh* only friends when they get something out of it...and suddenly when you decide you'd rather do something else than wait around all the time you;ve done some horrible wrong. oh well. ill get over it ( Read more... )

ok, well, so far i have had the best weekend ever! lol. yestarday i went with josue and danniele and mallory and we went and i got a tattoo. i like it. and i was so scared i though i was going to die!!!!!! i almost pissed my pants i was so scared, but it ended up not hurting hardly at all, so thats good. but i like it. its a peace hand. so yes...my ( Read more... )

when its all over where will you go?
o cant be your emotional crutch. i cant be here only when you need me or only when its best for you. i need something from you.
i cant always be your consolation prize.
but for now, ill let you put me away for a rainy day.

sigh. im sitting around with mallory listening to dar side of the moon. fun fun fun. i enjoy it very much. i love hanging out with mallory. we really are more alike than anyone can really say. we like the same things, we complain about the same things, and when we arent being alike, we dont get pissed at eachother for not agreeing. we can just be ( Read more... )

today i have had a good day. i hung out with mallroy. we sat in my new and improved bedroom and talked and listened to the flaming lips. we went to movement class too, which is always awsome. and now we are sitting at my computer, but i have to take her home soon. sadness. but oh well. good day ( Read more... )

well, today was routine, but good all the same. my mom got me a couch to put in my room. yayf or couches. i am happy. i love couches. i was supposed to move it in today but i dont know if im going to because i cant do it alone....hmmm. i dont know. my moms not home so i guess i have to wait ( Read more... )

i miss anna. i dont know. i feel like we have both been someplace else recently. i like we've just split. which is sad...but everything will work itself out in time...that is ofcourse unless she decides that she hates me and ditches me. oh well. i suppose it will be meant to be. but anna, you are my best friend and i love you. dont leave me. lol ( Read more... )

well my night sort of turned to shit. it didnt work out like it was supposed to and mallory and i ended up sitting at josue's watching mad tv. it wasnt all bad though. i dont feel like talking about so ill just give you the main points ( Read more... )

im only doing this because i love katie mckay dearly and feel badly for not calling you about waterskiing ( Read more... )