My grades...are sick ass =) im on the honor role somehow. But my friends, are great, my parents are pretty chill, the only thing im missing is my best friend. Ryan called me his best friend today =) i felt loved. i just felt bad that he's not mine. Don't get me wrong, i enjoy his company more then anyone else, but i dunno. i start working on thur ( Read more... )

Anthony called me last night. i heard the ring, and i freaked out. the 2 hour conversation didn't settle anything. but we talked. about how he's never going to talk to me agan, and that i hurt him too many times for him to take me back in this time. and that i mean nothing to him, and he doesn't hate me b*cuz that's a sign of caring, which he doesn ( Read more... )

Even though she is like a bazillion miles away, jessica is still my sister. I asked for her advise, and sisters know best. i took her advise, but it switched around on my somehow. well i guess u gotta know the situation before completely understanding what im talking about. i miss anthony :-\ i didnt, for a long time. but i do again. i guess he was ( Read more... )

i'm content

i went to school today. i held my head up hi, as if i had something to be proud of, and i thought. everything that i've done in the past year and a half, are nothing but regrets. fuking up all the perfect friendships, not being good enough, all the drugs. maybe im just in a bad mood? i want something to be proud of...i had something, i think i took ( Read more... )

new years...was bomb, i was with harmonee, nick, sean, me, brian, kirk, scott, eric, justin, lauren, and mike...we had a grip of fun. then me harm sean and nick went to dennys at like 6am, we didnt sleep the entire nite, then we just went to seanshouse and slept till like 2 it was great hehe. tonite i just kicked it w/ nick and harm and brian and ( Read more... )

christmas, actually. wasn't that bad for me. i went to seans ouse and there was a lot of family dispute there, but the christmas at my house was pretty chill. my mom told me to go pick up rocks for our new fish tank, so i go. and anthony's cars there..haha fuck that. That's straight stalker right there homie haha. i dunno what im gonna do for new ( Read more... )

MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS

well yesterday there was some big gay ass dispute with me, harmonee and sean, too much shit talking, but anyway i saw anthony, last night. he walked by me, knowing i was there, and didn't even bother to look at me. he told harmonee "She doesn't exist to me right now, i dont have time to miss her, i'm too busy" but that's what i get right? this ( Read more... )

i dunno what happened to everyone. they are all taking anthony's side. i dont get it. i understand i fuked up and everything but shit. whatever i guess...i miss him, a lot ( Read more... )